Saturday, February 27, 2010
heyy
back to posting...
today
actually had 3 test
in the end only 2
so ya
ss
okay okay la the test
then recess
ate little, could not finish
then reading was bored to death
read the article and got a headache...
*ouch*
then e maths and a maths
cher go through a maths
den test
was day dreaming
didnt do the last question
again....
then oel
did things about LOVE
then the whole class like argh...
dont want to say
dont want to get killed
cca....
sian de yao ming
did footdrill with sec 4
den later raining
go canteen
then actually want to do home nursing
then later in the end sit at canteen
juanqing and sara started laughing, then pulled melissa in
i was there talking crap and laughing too
but then dont know what came over me
suddenly break down
they laughing, i crying...
i could not find anyone to lean on in the canteen loh
was just like sitting closely to myself emoing...
the 3 girls tried to make me laugh...
but i could not
then later
i was pissed off by their laughing
and just nice zhijin sit there
so went to sit in between zhijin
then finally finally broke down
and broke out in tears
sorry if i scared you all...
i couldnt help it
i have bottled up my feelings too long le
so just broke out
later esther brought me to wash my face
she actually wanted me to rest de
but i didnt want to,
thanks my dear jieh (: if you still are (:
then later in sjab room
talk about things
then after that chiong to change
and went to bbh
didnt buy anything
went to sweettalk
juanqing bought cheese fries
then me and sara stealing her food...
then later we walk home
sent iris to bus stop first
then walked home
crap a lot
cause i needed to regain my laughter
if not, parents will suspect...
then finally regained it a bit...
cant help but feel sad at times
jerome comforted me again
thanks (:
you are seriously my good ____ (:
thanks to all those people who keep supporting me
comforting me when i needed them
well, thanks sir gordon, for trying to lift my spirits too
by telling me jiayou go try SHELL pertrol...
tests tests tests finally over soon
next week 2 more...
sjab, more work to be done soon...
thanks buddy, yihui, zhijin, iris, sara, juanqing, melissa, amalina, siewshuen....
thanks a lot...
although i havent really regained my happiness
but thanks...
maybe i wont be sad but be damn crazy...
XOXO
tricia
♥ our lips must always be sealed
12:15 AM
Monday, February 22, 2010
happy birthday wenling (:
hehe
last night slept at 12
right after sending wenling the happy birthday message
this morning didnt want to wake up
went to school earlier a bit
didnt see iris
only her bag
then went to carpark porch
cause iris there
felicia they all training
then we give them our opinions
then sit at parade square after that
zhijin came
followed her to toilet
came back
then me and zhijin playing
she hit me
i hit her
play until my hand red
then girl guide's and scout's day
then mrs chua talk so long
then went back class
jiong yi and edwin pissed me off
then i shout
then mr lui change me seat
grr....
then the whole maths lesson i so damn quiet
edwin sit my seat
search my bag
and ate my chocolate!
grr....
edwin told me something that made me emo loh
recess
didnt eat
thinking too much le
after that
biology
cher never come
mr woo relief our class
then later ms tan came in told us need do work
so i chiong (:
in the end finished it
english
ipw discussion
went to the group
went crazy
remembered the joke iris and jiahui cracked
jiahui: go sudan for what? sun tan arr?
iris: what? then you come back what colour?
iris is racist!
....
jkjk nia
laugh until like siao
mother tongue
boring!
cher talk talk talk
then
e maths
edwin go slap my face!
emo the whole lesson
was smsing zhijin cause she asked me too...
then jiong yi there keep saying
"use handphone la!"
then end school
went to food court
walk here and there
in the end no chemistry
so after that went for chinese....
cher talked about article
then went home
forgot to call heidi
in the end still stay home....
i am bored...
joey bully me
cause she getting older
soon 6 more days....
she is old!
but i love her (:
she bring me joy when i am sad loh
it is like she can sense when i am sad
when i am happy
....
my beloved dog....
i am hungry loh
no food seh
so damn hungry la....
hehe i post till here le
cause i go study
XOXO
tricia
♥ our lips must always be sealed
6:43 PM
Saturday, February 20, 2010
heyy....
back....
today was bored
went to dad's boss
de house
then
didnt eat
cause no appetite.
then went to my grandaunt's house
sad there quite a while
after that went to orchard
waste time and parking fee....
cause stay there like 15 minutes then went off le
actually wanted to just send my sis there de
....
in the end go park car...
then after that
went to IKEA
stayed there quite a bit
like a few hours
then bought the yusheng
for today
and tmr also....
hais....
eating chocolates is no use!
i cant be happy eating chocolate....
thanks edwin for the chocolates
thanks all those who try to make me happy
thanks to all those who resist my anger
thanks to all those who do not get angry with me
when i am rude to you all....
i wish you will stop treating me negatively
i wish we will be together
i seriously do wish that....
seeing how xiangting scratch herself
i want to do that myself
using the penknife.....
ahhh!
i going crazy le....
XOXO
tricia
tag replies:
juanqing: don't sad.. JIAYOU 
tricia: hais....hope so....
Vivian: Hello Tricy! ^.^
tricia: heyy...stop acting cute....(:
xuan: relink me girl. dun sad i tell u. IT DOESNT WORTH. takekaiire ^^
tricia: relink-ed le....is it really not worth it? i dont think so loh, although it made me so sad...
♥ our lips must always be sealed
10:53 PM
Sunday, February 14, 2010
heyy peeps!
happy
chinese new year and happy valentine's day!
today
i awoke at 7.48am
then went back to sleep
hahathen 10 woke up
went to church
got bullied by my brother in church
hahathen went to grandma's house
ate so much food
then went to my grandaunt's house
my uncle made my cousin cry.....
joked and my cousins gambled
i wont have the chance to gamble (:
cause parents
dont like
and i
dont want to....
LOLthen after that
went back to my grandma house again
ate junk food again!
haisthen went to my the other grandma house
ate steamboat
hahaonly ate the abalone
LOLthen later i keep eating junk food with my cousin
then watch show.....
then after that came home
liao....
sad right?
hais....
so little
hong baos....
whats worst is my hand have few scars
cause
LIM ZHIJINi ask her scratch one time
she go scratch me five times
then leave scars and i have to lie to my parents....
but after all that happened
i feel that what she did is right...
i cant make up my mind whether to ask or not
i have never felt so sad for a
chinese new year before
even though my ex broke up with me before
chinese new year
but i have never felt so lonely and sad before....
my cousin knows what is happening to me
but when we see each other
we keep quiet
cuase i thinks he knows that he cannot say out a single thing
if not i will start crying
start getting
emo again
my cousin knows that i am there
feeling lonely
thanks cousin for all that you did for me (:
you are seriously a good cousin (:
going around getting
hong baosi got bullied by cousins but not the one who cares for me
although getting bullied lifts my spirits a bit
i am still not in the
chinese new year mood.....
i feel so
argh!
as much as i want to know his answer
i
dont have the guts to ask him
as i am afraid i will cry once he answers me
my cousins says
if he is really
jioing someone
and then he accepts me
i am just
substituting the girl
i get that part
but i really hope it is not this way
even if he accepts me....
he thanked me for my present.....
what does it mean?
nothing right?
zhijin said he smiled when she passed him my present
is she trying to lift my spirits?
or is it true?
thanks
jayden and
ryan!
you have given me good advice when i am feeling down
feeling upset
trying to lift my spirits
but i could not....
thanks all those in school trying to make me happy
but all you see is a 'fake tricia'
i havent been really happy these few days.....
getting angry for no rhyme or reason
and at the cny celebration....
i couldnt help but feel sad....
cause it is like
i suddenly feel lonely
me sitting there
playing with my nametag
i have been eating a lot of chocolates
these few days
but nothing is working to make me happy
....
did you know when i see you outside of your classroom, my heart became happy
not sad anymore
seeing you, lifts my spirits....
timothy say i am not sure of this relationship
or my love to you
cause i did not tell my parents
but i think they know
when i talk to my cousin about you
they read it....
i take relationships seriously
timothy says i took it too seriously already
but i guess this is what i am
only too you, i feel so serious....
i dont know why....
i wrote another confession....
only iris, juanqing and maybe zhijin knows about it
i really cant stop my tears when i am thinking about you...
cause of what you said
saying you dont like me....
treating me negatively
all these stuff
i feel so miserable
zhijin trys to cheer me up....
but i cant be happy....
i broke down in front of zhijin just the other day
crying during my chinese supp
and the next day
i go crazy
cny eve
drank red wine
tried to drain my sorrows
but in the end
i only act siao
nothing else
....
♥ our lips must always be sealed
11:09 PM
Friday, February 5, 2010
heyy
back to posting today....
hais
went to school early
talked to junming
then iris came
blah blah blah
went to com lab 4 chinese recording
after that had ss test
wrote till like siao
recess
juanqing eat so damn lot la
....
reading
i was chiong-ing my summary
suppose to hand in next week de
e maths
once cher write down what homework
me and melissa
chiong like siao
a maths
i also chiong
left 2 questions
....
then oel
i was still doing my maths
talked about respect for animals
...
CCA
had fun doing pt
once in a while loh
then after we were dismissed
the thing started again
they carried him towards me
i seriously cant do anything
ppl call me a liar
i dont care
cause i already did my best....
just that someone stopped me...
what can i do?
did maths while wait for time to pass
finally left the canteen
went to bus stop
called junming a betrayer
sorry junming
i know you didnt
but i seriously going crazy already
i dont know what is wrong with me
i seriously dont know
i cant keep supressing my feelings anymore
i emo
i scratch myself
did you know that?
bus stop
np people came out
you didnt
i didnt want you to miss your bus again like on wed
so i wanted to go
later sara say what she take 985
they keep making me not cross the road to wait for my father
cause you were there....
your friends ask me
'you waiting for _____ arr?'
i answered ' no, my father.'
but deep in my heart
_________________
i seriously dont know whats wrong with me
you told me you dont like me
fine
i get emo
then what?
expect you to really like me?
it must be my foolish thinking,
i am going crazy
i may cut myself anytime soon loh
i wish wish wish we may ______ ......
answer your own answer
i do not want any remarks from others
i only know now
i wont give up
deep down in my heart, there will always be a place for you
no one can replace you......
passing by your classroom, letting me see an empty classroom,
made my heart sink....
hais....
XOXO,
tricia
♥ our lips must always be sealed
10:38 PM
be with him (: