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2010-12-26T00:33:00.002+08:00

my life, had never been easy
just when i finally had the courage
to tell you all those
i cant believe my own eyes.
what i said
what you said.
i just cant believe you think that
having one is just tying you down
when different people, different situations.
i am someone
who just needs you to care for me
love me,
for me to be able to run to when i need help
bad experiences
i learnt from them
i dont need you to always go out with me
just when we both are free
we will go out
otherwise,
i dont need you to report to me where you are
i just need to feel cared for, loved for,
just need to feel that, i am worth something in your eyes.
just need to feel that you have your trust on me and i have yours.
i just want to feel secure.
thats all i want, is that even so hard to ask for?

2010-12-11T00:20:00.003+08:00

why is it always like this?
好心没好报
ugh
i cared about you
thats why i said all those
to make you stop falling deeper for her
instead
you did
you yourself said it was awkward de...
and there you are,
loving her
thats what you claim,
you claim you would love her for long ehh?
time will prove it
lets see about that
this is what you truly want is it?
for us to quarrel till like this
till there is nothing that can salvage it?
i really dont understand
i cared for you
and this is what i get in return
is caring a crime?
said all those just to make you not think of her
said all those just for you to know its impossible between you and her
and i got back fired...
ugh!

XOXO
tricia (:

2010-12-04T22:52:00.003+08:00

haish, my blog is dead! :D

holidays are a bore!
have been doing homework
and now, watching my 7th drama!
gonna watch the 8th one soon...
hahaha
time flies...
i really hope i will be able to do well next year...
Lord, give me the strength and the wisdom..
amen!

hahaha, today went to school early in the morning,
went to meet yihui uhh...
then when we walked out of the toilet
the teacher wanted the in charge
then i bo bian, be in charge -.-
10 breads for 22 cadets
nice uhh
...
then was slacking slacking until lunch time
super hungry
ate laughed chatted
after that went back to the room
sat down, chatted with amalina and sara
talked about a lot of stuff
hahahaha
laughed until i stomachache..
after some time
we went to sort books
fun fun uhh
but tiring...
had dinner!
went to lot after that
laughters again.. (:
had fun today
tiring day too...
not going to cca tomorrow
going to church :D
i wanna eat seaweed!
LIM TIANNING! lets go buy milk tea!
hahaha!

now, im waiting for my baobei to come home uhh
she is coming back at midnight...
cant wait! (:
miss her like siao...
finally, she is back! :>

xoxo
tricia :>

2010-11-19T16:38:00.000+08:00

im super bored~~
haish,
i wanna go out...
i have to learn to stop repeating myself lerh
like my cravings...
hmmm
stop repeating lerh
im going to keep everything to myself from now on
..
guess that is better bahh..
i found out about that
thank you for saying something like that
vice versa uhh
try not to talk to you liao..
i have to put down everything and start a new life
but i cant think too much now
not feeling well
headache,
wanna vomit!
ugh!
off to watch show and talk to baobei lerh
XOXO
tricia

xuan! enjoy your trip yea?
must have fun uhh!
miss you lots, see ya soon! :D

2010-11-08T22:45:00.003+08:00

love is a mystery
you will never know when you will meet the right person

today is a fun day
although im having fever
still went to school
had lessons
e maths
was kind of playing there
then english
went through content point
watched movie
i fell asleep
went for recess
ate with LOVEEEE (:
then went back class for elect
super boring ):
then after that went to limbang
bought food to go loveee's house eat
then after finish eating
we started crapping
watching show on the bed
lying on the bed and watch show
took photos
loveee, took my unglam pic! ):
LOL
had fun
with her sis too
was super funny today
hahaha
enjoyable day
after i went off from lovee's house
went to lot
at the LRT platform lerh
then tell me need buy dinner
so went to buy
and went home
super slack
super tired
no strength ):
haish
i need my rest
cant wait for next week! (:
XOXO
tricia (:

2010-11-02T21:17:00.002+08:00

im in love (:
lol..
i got into a relationship status with baobei shavon (:
hahaha...
today
lesson
fell asleep in mr lui's lesson
then after that
mother tongue
slacked in com lab
recess
didnt get to eat..
then after that english
got into band 2
was quite fun
cause after he taught finish
watch video
(:
after that went to pei shavon
eat ice cream
then went home lerh
sian diao luhh at home
mange to get some sleep though
but im still super sleepy ..
haish
im officially sick! ):
now i no voice liao...
flu
sore throat
i wanna die :/
...
nevermind
XOXO
tricia

2010-10-28T22:45:00.002+08:00

loveee
this is for you (:
dont forget to smile ((:

today was fun fun fun
it was a blast
went to school
then got a present from zhijin
damn cute, damn nice
thanks a lot my dear ((:
love yea (:
then after that had briefing and stuff
then went for dragonboating
3/7 were planning on how to make me
then in the end
on the boat
the boat stopped,
they singed happy birthday song to me
then splashed water at me
was wet
..
had fun (:
hahaha
then when leaving
they sang the song again then splash water again
this time, the instructor splashed water...
i was super wet luhh..
sorry for those who got wet because of me ):
after that, went to change
then went back to school
did the cca cert
then went out to eat with iris, juanqing, sun wen and jingmei
met shavon later
went to eat pizza hut
after that
met siew shuen and zachary
then went around lot
went to the playground
was like talking
then siew shuen and zachary was on the other side
then siew shuen suddenly came over
then she suddenly pour powder at me
then zachary did the same too
hahaha
had a blast at the playground too
after that went to eat yogurt
iris and zachary left
left me, shavon and siew shuen
then we went to the basketball court
something made me super pissed off
and im glad i finally said out
i didnt want to
but i guess i did
i dont want to give in anymore..
seriously..
but anyway
after that
me and siew shuen went to lot
went to kiddy palace
bought myself a present!
hahaha
then went to eat KFC
treated siew shuen
was like playing with the money at the counter
ate then walked around
went to the void deck
and talked (:
cheer up my loveee
treasure the times now kay? (:
love you lots ((:

thanks everyone who celebrated my birthday for me
love you all lots ((:

XOXO
tricia

2010-10-27T23:41:00.002+08:00

camp finally over
camp wasnt really fun
all we did was wait
and stare into mid-air
got injured during the 2 expeditions
and was sick after the kayak expedition..
then the next day...
i was sick,
felt faint and giddy
then headache
but still went for the cycling..
didnt get to do high elements cause
too sick lerh
then after that was like campfire
not as fun as last year
the instructors were not
interactive at all luhh
then finally the camp was over
damn happy camp over
but im injured ):
went home
packed up
didnt sleep
went to watch my show
then after that
washed clothes
washed finish all in one day
and super fast luhh
after that went out with shavon and siew shuen
was fun (:
hahaha
took photos with shavon too (:
the camp wasnt fun but the outing was fun :D
XOXO
tricia

get well soon my di, dont be sick luhh.. (:

2010-10-21T22:58:00.002+08:00

when im all alone, i start thinking of you again
missing those times we spent together...
haish...
loveee is disappointed in me for being soft-hearted
help me!! ):

im sorry loveeeee
im sorry i let you down
i promise
i promise
i will try not to be soft-hearted anymore...
try my best kays?

today
went to school
had dragon boating
fun fun fun
all wet
and im dreading the next week's one
wonder what will happen next week
...
after that went back school
final assembly
then had camp briefing
just hoping the PSI will go higher
so that camp will be cancelled
hahaha
i dont want to go camp :/
then after that
went home
then lovee called me out
so went out
with lovee and shavon (:
had a fun time
we went to eat pastamania
and zhijin was there...
after that lovee and shavon went to play DDR
then took photos
after that went to popular
saw some people
then went to yami yogurt
ate yogurt and took photos
totally had a fun time with them luhh ((:
love today
thanks for today lovee and shavon ! :D ♥
XOXO
tricia

2010-10-19T21:44:00.002+08:00

bahhhh!!!
on diet diet
cut down on food to save money
never eat :/
today went to school
boring!
was using msn the whole day
:/
then after that during a maths lesson
i fell asleep
everyone did larh
then sleep till chem
went through paper again
then social studies
only listened to the first half
the other half
didnt bother listening
then after that went to lot
went to buy food
then after sara and iris came to my house
ate
then started playing com
then play piano
then went into my room
and ransack my room
play with soft toys
took unglam pics
was fun
but super pain and tiring...
messy too
hahaha
then after that they went home
i started being sian diao
im starting to get emo again
didnt eat dinner... ):
the haze is making me sick too
i really really dont want to go camp!
sian luhh

♥ loveee...
save me... ):
i really dont know what to do
im back to being emo again...
haish :/

XOXO
tricia

2010-10-18T21:34:00.003+08:00

got back results today
fell asleep during chemistry
results were bad
failed chemistry
by 2 marks ):
had SEP briefing after school till 3pm
then went lot
ate yogurt and went to my house
played basketball
crazy way
new way of playing
...
these few days
many thoughts on my mind
i am really really confused
but i have come to a decision...

thanks loveee for all this time
encouraging me and supporting me in all the stuff
making me go the right way
God had it all planned out
letting you to lead me to the right choice
making sure that i dont go the wrong way
lesson learnt
and i really regret not listening to all the advice given before
you saying all those touching words
really touched my heart
i believe that God wanted you to be there to make me wake up
wake up from this nightmare, making me make the right decisions
and in turn, i will help you when you need help
you really are a good friend
a really really good one (:
i love you loveee ♥
thanks to all those who also guided me through my difficult times...
especially my close friends...
thanks a lot...
i love you all ♥
most of all, i have to thank God for leading me through
and letting me have all these wonderful friends
to help me through my difficult times
i love you lord! ♥

loveeee! i got something to update you! hahaha!

XOXO
tricia

2010-10-04T23:05:00.003+08:00

i will never forget you ((:

today
english exam
was like studying in the canteen
then raining
so class..
after that study more
then did my paper
slept 25 minutes...
then recess...
paper 2
did okay
wanted to sleep the last 15 minutes
but got one teacher take my paper and look
so was like
damn rude luhh
just pull the paper from under me
wahlao ehh..
then after that collect paper
went to lot
at first got me, sara, zhijin, juanqing and iris one
then left me, sara and zhijin only
cause juanqing and iris wanted to hug the pole
we three arrived at lot and walked around liao they still hugging...
sorry if i got mad at you, especially iris...
sorry! D:
ate then went to study...
after that we three went separate ways
they went home
i went out...
with siew shuen
we talked and ate
then went to find someone and talk again
(:
had fun today...
i am trying to avoid all the stress luhh
im too stressed up already
and gastric! )):
haish
XOXO
tricia

love love love! cheer up hor! remember what i told you... 我说到做到 ((:

2010-09-24T23:52:00.004+08:00

i want to sit that! :D

today was fun fun fun!
school was like totally any other day
but we did stock check
helped iris
and we broke record
although we were like slacking before that
i was sweeping the floor
then in the end
all help to count the orange tee and stuff
then went to lot with iris, sara, siew shuen, juanqing and shavon
went to walk walk then food junction
siew shuen could only eat at 3.05pm
sat there a while
then sara, iris and juanqing went to buy food
after that is siew shuen and shavon
didnt eat
got no appetite
then later we sit there talk talk
talk about our stuff
then after that went to library
started studying
did my chinese
both of them finish lerh
finished my maths...
study for like a few hours straight
then after that siew shuen and shavon went off
juanqing went to find her erhem
then left me, sara and iris
continued studying
then after that we all went to eat yogurt
with my cereal! :D
hahaha
super nice to eat luhh
then after that juanqing and jerome send me to school
took 985...
waited damn long...
but i think it is what God really wants for me...
then juanqing pei me walk to school
and stuff happened
but glad it is all over
after that 9pm
called dad to bring me home
many stuff happened in between too..
haish...
really really really hope something to happen...
today was totally fun :D
XOXO
tricia

2010-09-18T22:30:00.001+08:00

this week gone by in a flash
ups and downs this week
had a quarrel with family last night
a big one too
mother couldnt find me in the library,
say i wasnt there
and my brother found me -.-
father scolded me...
say why never answer phone
and stuff
how to when my sim card is not with me?
wahlao eh..
scold me until i cry
i go out to study and they trust me...
haish
this whole week
went out most of the days to like study
then never go home for dinner
today lehh,
did 5 hours of maths
wah
do until i headache want to die luhh
keep falling sick.. ):
ahhhh!
i want to go out to study
home is a distraction
all the quarrels and stuff
distracting me like seriously...
and they dont blame themselves,
blame me instead...
boohoohoo...
):
i am happy for siew shuen though
she got baptised today (:
a new her
her life renewed (:
thank you lord for renewing her :D

XOXO
tricia

2010-09-09T18:31:00.003+08:00

im hoping for us to be like this some day (:

[edited]
today was fun
after lesson
went to lot 1
ate kfc again
sian dao
juanqing ate 2 bowls
and and and
something made me happy
and juanqing come and tease me...
then play..
after that went to library
then slack there
was playing
then juanqing did two damn paisehh thing
keep laughing all the way...
cannot stop laughing
after that
sara came
then call siew shuen
then meet her later...
sara hungry
so went to eat food junction
then after that long john silver...
siew shuen came
zhi en joined us a while
eat eat eat
they all take my food luhh ):
then after that we went library again
then siew shuen went to meet her friend
slack in library for quite a while
juanqing went off
then siew shuen came back
went to talk to xuxuan
was fun
was laughing...
then went to buy stuff
after that
siewshuen, iris and sara
did something super epic
i was standing outside the library waiting for them
while they do their epic thing
then junming damn good send me a message
then later 15 minutes later then tell me is my friend send de..
luckily i never reply luhh
later reply wrong one..
went to eat yami yogurt.
then went to food junction and eat
eat finish
spectacle hut
and went home...
today was totally fun
cause cause cause ... :D
XOXO
tricia

2010-09-08T18:20:00.002+08:00

i want to smile, but i cant ):

today, had lessons from 8-11
then at 1
bio
could not go out of school
cause raining
then we were like all starving there..
talked a lot..
had fun too..
but pissed
bio..
talked about frostbite
yesterday was liposuction
yuck yuck yuck
then lesson end at 2 plus
cause lesson start late
then went to lot
went to eat
then after that went from basement 1 to third level
buy stuff
then went to library wanted to see...
sunwen called me
went to the talking corner to answer
and sunwen and jingmei were there...
then after that
walked
saw his friends...
then ....
happy happy
then later went to toilet with sara
was like talking about them
then suddenly
walked out
still talking about them
they were outside
wahlao
damn paisehh luhh ..
then went back to library
then roof garden to slack
then walked around
just reached home not long ago...
my dog got something wrong luhh..
hopefully it is not what i am thinking
i am just paranoid i guess...
):
XOXO
tricia

take care of yourself ! :D

2010-09-06T19:08:00.002+08:00

woo! i want to have dreams with you :D

holiday like no holiday
went to school at 8
for 3 hours of a maths and biology
sian dao...
then after school went to find...
in the end did not see him
then we went to find teacher
after that
went to lot 1
ate pizza hut
then bought stuff from popular
then went to ITE..
on the way there..
many stuff happen
and i blame you, CHOO JUANQING
a lot!
...
after that went home luhh..
haish
fun and tiring day..
watching summer's desire ! ep 10 le! :D
XOXO
tricia

2010-09-02T21:12:00.001+08:00

see! my darling little girlfriend :D
haha
today was fun
and tiring
went to ECP to collect rubbish
someone made me super happy happy! (:
i love today
cause its like damn fun loh
rubbish collecting become slacking
then teacher very angry
made us go back to school...
cause we never collect rubbish
we were all sitting on the rock and slacking...
(:
iloveyou! :D
XOXO
tricia

2010-08-31T19:54:00.001+08:00

zhijin girlfriend! love your thingy ma? hahaha!

today was fun fun fun!
teacher's day celebration
then after that went out...
o.o
today was just another day
just that i had fun
tmr going to go east coast!
(:
hopefully it wont rain...
haha
XOXO
tricia

2010-08-27T19:13:00.003+08:00

will you look after me like this? D:

today was just another boring day
haish
social studies..
goh hui min taught us
boring!
then later is english
worst
i sit there eat chocolate only
then later is recess...
me and zhijin studying
then geography
got test!
fail liao...
haish
then later is mother tongue
teacher never come
slack slack slack
..
then after school had 15 minutes of e maths
cher return us our paper
..
luckily i never fail..
then later we slack in class a while
talk talk talk
with one whole bunch of sjab ppl and shavon
then later me, iris, siew shuen, shavon and zhi en fatty go do walkathon
jiongyi, juanqing, sara, jingmei, sun wen went to ncc hq
haha
separate..
then after that went to lot one slack awhile then go do
sian
no money collected...
so damn hot
then went to buy drink and went to eat
eat little bit only
the whole trip was fun loh...
we were like laughing here and there
especially in the food court
after that went to buy things then come home le
had fun with them, especially chicken (: that joker
haish
i still owe limzhijin something...
sorry
i have no idea how to start ):
and you always pangseh me! i dont like! ):
XOXO
tricia

2010-08-23T21:08:00.002+08:00

the whole day in school was a torture ):
was not feeling well loh
but i still ate chocolate
felt like vomiting :/
was like giddy, headache, stomachache loh
then the worst part was
the balloon bursting during the afternoon lesson
made it worst
mother tongue was a bore
after that
went to 3/7
then to com lab 4
then to the old block level 2
then went to block 160 do walkathon
in the end
do awhile then go home le..
haish
was thinking a lot on the way home
really hoped for something from him...
stupid samantha bullied me! ):
she changed name liao, from a guy become a girl
change me from a girl become a guy ..
lameshit sia she...
haish..
will you just sms me? D:
XOXO
tricia

2010-08-20T22:25:00.000+08:00

haish
today school was boring
did my e maths homework in class
then cca
quite fun
cause of the fast timing for footdrill
everyone coordinated
after that
pek chek
cause no one buy dinner
in the end me and brother stuff ourselves to finish the food he bought
...
so full
then later finish
full, still eat the durian puff..
hahaha!
later start doing homework
then later...
i started talking to ppl
started crying..
haish ):
XOXO
tricia

2010-08-19T20:31:00.002+08:00

haish haish haish
today
walked around school in the morning with junwen
then later we talk talk..
then after that went to find someone with zhijin
then later sit there and talk
a maths
teacher come in
start scolding
shout at nicholas tan
then we kena punished
then later bio
teacher scold us also
..
haish
made model
did mind map
then e maths
did worksheet...
then recess
talk talk talk
went to buy book
then
mother tongue
did some test ..
sian
english
1 hour only
wasnt paying attention at all
talking with kor..
then later 1 hour free
did homework
lunch
heard maths cancelled
me and zhijin started doing homework
..
then chemistry
went through test
after that
lesson end
went to sjab room
do stuff
a lot of stuff happen there,
make me scream and very pek chek ):
haish
LOL
i want to go do homework!
XOXO
tricia

2010-08-18T20:22:00.002+08:00

i wanna eat chocolate chocolate!!! (:
i am super duper hungry
haish
parents went overseas this morning
dog was like barking barking barking early in the morning
ate macdonalds for breakfast
did recording for english
bio, had skit
haish
boring day...
sleepy day too
haish
cca was kind of fun
(:
hehe...
i hope you will do better! (:
i want to eat!
oh ya di
thanks for your present! (:
love it.. :D
XOXO
tricia

17/8/10

2010-08-17T23:28:00.000+08:00

sorry zhijin about today! ):
promise you i will treat you better! (:
if you give me raisins!! (:
hahaha!

today,
half happy half sad
mostly happy i guess
most happiest is after school
what happened after school
hehe
social studies
teacher never come..
woo!
no test
whole day was kind of busy
hahaha..
today stuff is a secret :/
((:
hahaha!
was bored so go post the letter thing on facebook...
tiring ):
XOXO
tricia

13/8/10

2010-08-13T18:52:00.001+08:00

cried over what you said this morning
i dont want to accept it
i dont want to! ):
haish
bad luck today
like seriously
not being superstitious though
friday the 13th :D
phone kena confiscated when i 'check' the time
then ms tan passed my phone to ms lum
asked her for my phone
then she ask me 1pm go meet her
i got no phone
then suntha keep on 刺激我
so bad la!
then i told my mother my phone confiscated
no scoldings no nothing
surprisingly though
then at 1pm go find ms lum
she told me " next time, get a watch"
then she return me
so good loh..
haish,
cca was half fun, half tired :\
hoping about something though...
XOXO
tricia

12/8/10

2010-08-12T21:19:00.000+08:00

today,
happier a bit le
but we still quarrelled
mood was ruined...
but thanks to suntha, firdani and junming for making laugh like mad in class
mood was happier but deep inside
i felt like dying...
not laughing,
think think think
laughing,
i still thought about it..
but not as much i guess...
sis is coming home from KL today...
miss her damn lots la (:
haha...
and she still isnt home yet ):
haish...
when will all this misery just end?
boohoo!
XOXO
tricia

11/8/10

2010-08-11T22:14:00.000+08:00

boohoo!
i am sad sad sad!
):
today a lot of things happened
all my test i never study
can fail liao ):
haish...
hopefully this will all be over soon!
thanks all those who was with me today in lot 1
thanks a lot... (:
XOXO
tricia

9/8/10

2010-08-09T16:06:00.000+08:00

boring national day! ):
haha! i have nothing to do!
going out later for dinner though!
see, i so guai, listen to siew shuen and zhijin (:
XOXO
tricia

7/8/10

2010-08-07T23:36:00.001+08:00

wooo!
changed blogskin!
guess i too free le
hahahaha! (:
XOXO
tricia

LIMZHIJIN
should i add pictures next time?
each time i blog?

6/8/10

2010-08-06T18:31:00.001+08:00

today,
woke up at 5.45
switch the alarm to 5.50
then later sleep awhile
thought i late le
but then see the time,
5.49..
then take my own sweet time
brother woke up damn early too
then later father send me to school
saw my juniors in the canteen
then later saw syazwani
then wait for the sir to come
then later he late for 10 minutes loh
then we go train flag
wanted to give out sweet one
but then cannot
boohoo!
then later we go parade square le
then prepare liao
parade start le
then the guest of honour late loh
make us wait so long
then the parade finally start
after parade
was at the carpark
gave out my sweet
then later senior told me, jiongyi and juanqing got reception
in the end
dont have
then after that we got attire check
then dismissed
sat in the canteen for a while
then the others dismissed le...
so we sit until 10.30
then went off
went home
bathe and took my own sweet time again
then went to meet iris, sara, jingmei ,zhijin and di (:
then after that went to take the mrt with iris, sara, jingmei and zhijin
took to commonwealth
then met sunwen
after that went to city hall
went to eat kfc
freaking cold sia ):
freeze to death loh
then after that go buy bag
then went to lot 1
zhijin wanted to go home liao
so the rest of us went to ite
went to buy sweet
no stock
then me, sunwen and jingmei went to buy
each a cup
asked my mum bring me there
then go the eco cafe
ate waffle
nice nice
haha!
then after that i went home
the rest went to lot one..
take care on the trip di!
haha
sms me when you come back (:
XOXO
tricia

dont think otherwise..
you are still in my heart! (:

30/7/10

2010-07-30T22:57:00.000+08:00

today went to school
weather still okay
then sit down
talk to iris awhile
then later the weather change
syazwani came
joceleen came to talk and sell her yfc stuff
iris bought it
then after that
zhijin came
finally went up,
but we went to sjab room first to take the consent form first
lauren was walking with us
zhijin and iris stayed in the canteen to buy milk
me and lauren went up first
then later i went out of the classroom
enjoyed the wind
then started raining
called zhijin
ask her buy drink for me
she dont want ):
then later clarissa and junwen came
went to talk to them
almost cried out again
sian
then after that
zhijin came up
really no drink
zZz
then had lesson
social studies
watched a video
in front cannot hear anything
i wasnt even watching
then later make teacher repeat first part
teacher went through essay
i need to write a new one ):
then lesson end
english lesson
went to com lab 4 to type out my essay
saw him when walked past
i type type type
then went want to save that time
i found my letter of nomination
so i printed my draft
then printed my letter of nomination
then finish le
went out of com lab 4
was freezing
went back to class to put stuff
saw him again
then put stuff
and went to canteen
zhijin force me eat
then after that geography lesson
went through our test
then started on new thing
then the whole class keep making mdm ruhaiza laugh
for 10 minutes
she wanted to talk
but start laughing
then the whole class clap
say the word 'formation'
then she start laughing...
then finally she stopped loh..
i also dont know what happened before that
then mother tongue
went through the 2 comprehension
then lesson end le
went to find zhijin and iris and juanqing
then zhijin was at the classroom
she went off after that
iris and juanqing and me went to see where sara was
but she still having lesson
so went to staffroom
put the consent forms
then after that iris go find mdm koh and asked her about jiongyi's pants
zZz
after that we went to sjab room
to do stock check for uniform department
a lot of stuff happened there
i have to stand straight and trust the timing liao
..
haish
then finished at 2pm
then me, sunwen, jingmei, sara, juanqing and iris went to lot 1
went to toilet first
sunwen said something
making juanqing face red and damn ....
then went to kfc
ate then after that
went to roof garden
watch the video by jiongyi
then after that
we went to go buy present for yihui
then sara, juanqing and iris went to check timing for the movie
left me, sunwen and jingmei
after we finish
bought sweets
then went to the cinema there look for the others
they were outside
so sat outside
talk awhile
then sara, iris, sunwen and jingmei watching movie
me and juanqing went off at 4 plus plus
went home
did my NYAA then
started doing my homework
finished my e maths and a maths before going to my cousin's school
NTU
she graduating today
then went there
my sis and cousin bought her a bear
then after that went to find my cousin
took photos
then after that went to my house there and eat
after many suggestions
eat liao
wanted to eat durian
but they all dont want liao
so suan le loh
we came home
then i finished my bio le
so now posting...
XOXO
tricia

27/7/10

2010-07-27T23:53:00.000+08:00

a lot of stuff happened today
me and juanqing returned normal
more stuff happened
me having moodswings
making ics and stuff
i thought it through le

LOL
spam whatever you want
i dont give a damn
this is my blog
i write what i want...
so spam..
i really dont care (:
at least thanks for making my blog alive!
hehe!

kor being emo le today
javier not being emo
cheered me up
found my brother's glove
black black de
then ask mother to bleach it
my brother said something i damn happy about
"at least you know only i worn it before"
yeah
kind of agree
if sjab room de glove
dk who wear before loh =x
haha!
(:
thanks siewshuen for everything
you know what i said
and i mean it (:
thanks everyone else for trying to cheer me up
my kor, my friends... thanks a lot
pardon me if you cant take my moodswings (:
haha
XOXO
tricia

sleep time!

26/7/10

2010-07-26T22:41:00.000+08:00

today raining!
father sent me to school
reached school
the classroom empty
alone ):
then after that
almost fall asleep
then iris came
then talk talk talk
then after that
syazwani came and went
then i started crying )):
iris comfort me
confiscate my tissue
dont let me cry
then later syazwani came
then she comfort me
after that
flag raising
a maths lesson
cannot concentrate
then english
cannot concentrate again
e maths
got do assignment
but anyhow do
then recess
forced to eat
by zhijin
then later geography
did open book test
then chemistry
went to the lab
kena bullied by suntha and firdani
then bio
never pay attention...
after that went to find mency lee and stuff
then sit in canteen
then after that mother tongue
then went to mother tongue
talked about oral and stuff
then went canteen
went to sjab room
put bag
went to change
then after that went for training
quite fun bah
but i suppressing my feelings nia
then after that went out with zhijin
-.-
went to eat pastamania
then after that went to library
saw someone i didnt want to see
then we studied in the library
iris came
then went to meet juanqing and sara for dinner
i started bring emo...
zhijin tried to cheer me up
no use...
then after zhijin finished her homework
we went to rooftop garden
they eating
i just sat down
then i started crying le...
someone called him
he didnt answer
i really really hope we will go through all these challenges together
i dont want you to suffer alone
seeing you suffer alone breaks my heart
i really feel helpless, hopeless
i want to know the truth why you are doing this loh
why cant you tell me?
):
iloveyou and i dont want you to suffer alone...
then someone called clement
then someone else
-.-
all ignore him
then after that zhijin and juanqing went to take photo
went to NTUC while waiting
bought sweet for zhijin
then after that
take the photos
then went back home...
came home
sis' boyfriend inside
watching show with her
i no mood de go inside the toilet
...
then after that
on com and then started talking to siew shuen on the phone
thanks siew shuen for all this time ...
thanks zhijin for trying to cheer me up
thanks all those who are there for me..
i really appreciate it...
but the person i really want isnt among those...
)):
i want to know the truth...
can someone please tell me the truth...?
XOXO
tricia

let me know the truth
let me go through all these with you
iloveyou and i want to go through all these with you
i dont want you to suffer alone
let me be there by your side...
...
iloveyou.

24/7/10

2010-07-25T02:31:00.000+08:00

it must be somebody that forced you bah
if not why the sudden decision?
i cant believe you chose to do that to me
i really hope me and you are together
and is like
real together
i really am hopeless
i really dont know what to do now
all i can say is
iloveyou
and i wont give up on you
i really really do love you
i bet you didnt even know what you said when you were drunk
but just know one thing
iloveyou <3
whats more
i will wait for you...
i really cant give up on you ):

23/7/10

2010-07-23T23:09:00.000+08:00

walked to school with big bag
):
so bulky
then after that reached school
joceleen and iris sitting together
went to join them
then later syazwani came
joceleen went back
then we started studying
the two study history
i study ss
then like so messy
hungry
so opened my oreo to eat
acutally want ask zhijin buy de
in the end never
then went to sjab room
took stuff
then went back to parade square
went around asking for signatures again
then later flag raising
went back class
study a while
then social studies test
quite okay la
me and suntha were like eating during the test loh
me eating hello panda
suntha eating oreo
then after that is english
did the comprehension and finished it le
recess
ate indian food
with iris
then later me and afiqah discuss the timetable
discuss all the way till the toilet la
LOL
then geography
the teacher said something damn disgusting
then mother tongue
chiong my zuo wen
then later went to change
after that sat in class
talk crap
then later went down
and then all the busy stuff started
...
then later some sec 3 teach first aid
some MOI
then i did MOI
and he was sitting there when we were like doing the ..th person
then i was like hiding loh
after that
started to keep looking over
then senior staff florence shift the MOI to the foyer
then when going there
shirley jieh ask me whether i like nicholas is it...
i totally like dont know how answer
then after that geok soon ask me go to nicholas
after that i fall in
i kept looking over
shirley went to tell florence about him
then florence tease me
my fellow cadets too
then i totally blush until i cry la
but i am damn happy loh
seeing him (:
then later it is like they keep walking pass me
then florence made a scenario on us being hua chi
then i was like...
then my fellow cadets were like "shuai ge shuai ge"
"eh tricia de shuai ge leh"
...
tease me again
then after that he walked away le...
now even his sir also know la
he is like pei wo for the whole MOI loh
after that
fall in
talk about walkathon
then later went into sjab room
was told the contingent commander and the other stuff
then later i was chosen as the person holding the singapore flag
i tio shock
i was like blur blur for a while
then finally answered sir
later got promotion...
he was sitting there loh..
after that dismissed
we sec 3 went into sjab room
and talk talk talk
after that is like,
everybody legs all jelly le
i walked out of sjab room first
then the np was like
eh chu lai liao...
then later changed and stuff
wait for iris
then oreo
got 2
gave juanqing and sara one to eat
then later the chocolate one ask them give him
then i shooed off
what i heard later was they dont know who give them one...
heh
after that
parents picked me up
went to IMM
ate the hongkong food
then walked around
then went home le...
i just reach home nia...
..
haha
i go do homework le
XOXO
tricia

iloveyou
and i am damn happy to see you today
..
people say you kept looking over
then got someone randomly call me
ask me you and me quarrel is it?
damn weird loh...
but seriously if you like me
just say...
no matter what i will still wait until after your o levels de
so if you like me,
i will not force you de..
just knowing you like me
i happy le
being together and stuff
wait till after your o levels bah
jiayous!
iloveyou <3

21/7/10

2010-07-21T21:43:00.001+08:00

today morning
kor send me to school
went to school
see ppl who wore ethnic costume walk pass me
then me and joceleen down there talking
then after that went back to class there
then flag raising
then first period
english
got 3 teachers loh
but i still sms (:
haha
then biology
revision and played a game
then english
vocab test
quite easy
then went to change to ethnic costume
my cheongsam ):
then change liao
a lot ppl say me...
then later take photo
i hide behind
for the photos
then chiong to go change
then recess
ate
went to class late
tidied up e maths file
went through homework
a maths
did a new chapter
then after that got chem
did our practical test
after that went back to class
went to the toilet
slack a bit more
then went down
sit there
talk talk talk
then when i laugh that time
i squat there
zhijin ask me go near to her
so i go loh
then she punched me in the head
-.-
center somemore
make me cry laugh stop crying for 4 times
...
then the np ppl look at me like ...
then after that go put bag
went to chinatown!
in the bus
i almost fell of the seat as i was trying to take photo
then later we talk on bus and laugh
i kena punched at the side of my head 2 times again
then reached chinatown
went to a temple
looked at the museum
then went to walk
ate the chinese food
then went to a mosque
then a tamil temple
after that
we started taking photos
then walk back
i wanted to eat bak kwa!
then they all ask me buy ):
me and siew shuen talked about stuff
then later zhijin pangseh me
damn pissed sia
-.-
then they all sit behind
never reserve sit for us...
wtf
fine loh
you laugh
call me
i also dont care
then went back school
took bag
when closing the gate
injured my finger
then sit outside
talk
then i shout cause finger pain
saw him keep looking out
then later iris push me
i landed on the floor
then i sat there liao
damn shuang loh the wind
then after that a lot ppl walk pass me
then he came out
sat on the table
we went off
...
at bus stop
kena pangseh again
then i went home loh
i now feel terrible sia
totally stress
totally unwell ):
nevermind
go study le...
XOXO
tricia

was happy that you kept looking (:
iloveyou
and i wish you will be the one who will cheer me up everytime
but i know that you are busy with your studies
so jiayous!
i will wait de (:
iloveyou

18/7/10

2010-07-18T19:31:00.000+08:00

finally finished my homework! (:
thanks mark javen, teck chiang and gordon sir!
hahaha
although mostly mark javen teach me de (:
hahaha
today went to church
then after that causeway
then IMM
then home
came home and mugged
...
i want sleeeeeeeep!

thanks a lot sia
you, and him...
wtf
i really dont know how you talk to guys de loh
in the end the guys will like you la
-.-
teach me la!
hahaha!

XOXO
tricia

jiayous for your prelim ((:
iloveyou...

15/7/10

2010-07-15T22:37:00.000+08:00

scared myself in the morning
2 times some more
1, saw a cockroach
2, looked outside the window, thought insect
totally in shock loh
went to school....
then reached school
zhijin waiting at the traffic for me
hehe
then we walked in
after that we went to sjab room to take something
in the end
sit outside again
went to buy milk
zhijin opened one packet
so iris had to drink it
then zhijin went to buy again
while waiting for the shop to open
told her about how i hit my head against the pole ytd
then she hit my head 4 times
pain like siao
after that when flag raising
she hit my head another 2 times....
pain sia
..
after that went back to class
had a maths...
then later biology
went through tys
then e maths
did our assignment
then recess
didnt eat
only drank
then mother tongue
sit there go through the passage
then later teacher let us do our stuff cause we finish early
went back class
did proposal
then got oel presentation
changed our seating arrangement after that
after that school end
went to find shirley because of zhijin
then later went to com lab 3
put bags then went to canteen
walked to the toilet with zhijin
i had told kor to buy food for me (:
thanks kor
..
then later com lab 3
had to sit in register no!
-.-
so sit la
then yue lin come join our row
and we did the a maths assignment
after that english
faster shift back
i only managed to ate 2 scoops of the rice loh
then need sit in the center
then later firdani they all scolded for eating in class
nicholas tan scolded for making a lot of noise
went through oel
...
damn boring
sit there do nothing sia
then school end
went sjab room take stuff
then me, iris and juanqing went lot 1
went to eat
then later we went to aries
bought stuff
then went to popular to buy my stationery
then after that saw nicholas tan and jiongyi
followed them down
saw them in the pet shop
went to NTUC to buy stuff
then we saw them there again
got one damn funny thing happen too
then after that we walk around
to see what to eat in class tomorrow
finally bought stuff ...
then later bought my mee sua
nicholas tan bought his fried chicken
then went to pet shop again...
after that we all went home loh
then i came home
eat and do homework
i still doing sia ):
haha
post till here le
XOXO
tricia

jiayous for your prelims (:
do it once, do it well! (:
i believe you will score higher than your previous results
so jiayous and go for it ((:
iloveyou!

14/7/10

2010-07-14T20:55:00.000+08:00

today
reached school...
joceleen and iris sitting together
after that joceleen went back
gave syazwani and iris marshmallow (:
nice nice
then zhijin came
so me, iris and zhijin went to find the clipboard
went to sjab room
then cannot find
after that zhijin say she want to drink milk
but no money
so she lend from someone
-.-
took damn long to get the money sia
after that go flag raising
then went back to class
first period
english
the new cher teach us
can fall asleep loh
suntha kena caught eating
damn funny
then we trying to keep awake by eating sweets
then bio
we were like joking about something we saw
mr leong sat beside suntha
i was using hp
then i kena caught
but he only said
keep the hp...
okay loh
so keep
then after that english again
totally can fall asleep liao
then recess...
didnt eat until almost last minute
then went to classroom
opened cookies and eat
maths and a maths was okay
quite boring though
we keep eating cookies
then chemistry
did practical
okay okay la
i sat with germaine
then after chemistry
went to change
then we sjab illegal gathering at 3/7
haha
after that iris and zhijin went to take attendance file
me, siew shuen, juanqing, sara was like taking our own sweet time
after that fall in
we stand there
joke abit with senior staff florence
then after that she say got something to announce
had to delay the girl guide's first aid training
after that
they announced all the in - charge...
some okay
some unreasonable though...
then after that our new i/c , afiqah trained us
until cca end...
we kena scolded for not preparing the first aid lecture
sian
cca end
sit there...
wait for sara finish her work
i saw him
then we went to parade square
look at ncc train
felicia come talk to us
then i said something wrong and they pushed me
so i kind of fell on the floor squatting
after that sara sat on the floor
so i sat there
then got one teacher walk in between us
damn funny loh
after that iris sat there
then say got car
move in...
then sit again
after that we left school
cause we saw mr tay -.-
went to bus stop
i stupidly wanted to hit the pole
but instead hugged it
in the end
my forehead hit the pole
pain sia ):
nevermind
so came home alone
then now doing homework (:
post till here le
XOXO
tricia

happy studying and jiayous (:
do well for your o levels...
idk what 'he' was talking about
making me announce that i like you...
i dont want to affect you
so i dont wish to and i dont have the power to (:
so concentrate on your studies and i will try to stop
these kind of stuff (:
jiayous!
iloveyou <3

13/7/10

2010-07-13T22:11:00.000+08:00

went to school later than usual
sick sick sick ):
reached school
zhijin splashed contact lens solution at me ..
then i blow bubbles at her -.-
then later me, zhijin go sjab room buy milk
then we sit there
cause the shop havent open
so sit there
talk talk talk
then later sara and iris came
zhijin bought her milk
then we played bubble
later say want play at the carpark there
so i walk there
blow
then later 2 teachers came
sara holding the bubble thingy
i run away
hahaha
sorry sara ):
then later we play somemore
i walked back
with the solution in my hand
then zhijin they all thought i threw it away
cause i walked alone ma
then later flag raising
prefect investiture
then later we got pe
went to change
then sit there listen
then played touch rugby
...
after that maths
sit there and dream
then got mother tongue
during mother tongue
i smsed him (:
he replied me
and we chatted all the way till his maths lesson,
which is my chemistry lesson
mother tongue
we did oral
keep laughing la -.-
then later recess
i finally ate
kena suan-ed by clement and kor
then after that finish le
went back class
clement and kor shoot bottle caps at me
-.-
damn pain leh!
then had a maths lesson
did trigo thingy
mr lui said something damn funny
make me and kor there keep laughing
-.-
and i kena suan-ed!
then later chemistry
did the mole...
i understand leh! (:
then social studies,
iris and juanqing went off for mt oral
then i sit with zhijin
we keep laughing at the retarded thing she drew
after that
went for lunch
saw sara
then they went to buy drink
sara ate prata
then me and zhijin went to check something in the sjab room
and found out something missing...
sadded!
then after that went to the hall
had sexuality talk
wth...
the STI so damn disgusting la
i almost vomitted
-.-
then after that got the cultural fest talk
then did survey
actually got bio practical
then mr leong last minute then cancelled
so me and zhijin went to lot
i keep calling, iris and sara, juanqing and megan
all never answer
so i went library
and found them
megan went off
then when we went to basement 1
we saw zhijin...
after that
i went to buy mee sua and fried chicken
sara and juanqing ate subway
smsed him
he said he home le, 5.30 online
but i still at lot ):
i ate my stuff there
then after that went NTUC with iris
bought stuff
then went home le...
after that i talked to kor on the phone
quarrel with him
...
then i polished my boots
never eat anything
until mother bring me to lot take photo
then i ate one bun
i want charcoal bread! (:
write until here le
XOXO
tricia

LIMZHIJIN
thanks for the pictures (:

i love you (:
and i really enjoyed what we chatted about today....
hope we will do it again...
i really really hope we will be together...
but i know that cant be forced.. ):
i love you and jiayous for your studies (:

12/7/10

2010-07-12T21:02:00.000+08:00

haish...
bad day today
went to school carrying 3 stacks of book and a file ):
sit there
suddenly stomachache
then later zhijin came
pull me go sjab room
so went loh
then my stomach damn pain la...
went back class
sit a while
then flag raising
after that went back to classroom
sit there
a maths
didnt even listen to class loh
after that english
worst
i pain like siao
then e maths
also never listen
recess
went toilet first then go eat
i sit there
like stupid person like that loh
then after that got geog
happier a bit
still kind of moody
after that got chemistry
sian sian liao
bio worst
although got laugh
kena scolded by teacher
then lunch
took bag
then heard no emaths
went to staffroom
heard no mother tongue
so me and sara went lot 1
went to eat pontian
after that zhijin came
but went off after a while
then went to library
stomachache again ):
then after that megan came
then went to eat loh
she ate only
after that went to popular
then megan bought drinks
then we go home le...
come home
depressing sia
3 ppl ignore me in a day
wtf
and i f***ing hate that person...
LIMZHIJIN should know who...
i emphasis on the word SHOULD!
dont assume it is you when i didnt say so
...
fine
now everybody ignore me loh...
forget it
suddenly 3 ppl treat me so damn cold
i also cannot do anything
sad mood la
cry only la ):
i just need a shoulder to lean on
and everyone is treating me like shit
whatever loh!
no use living liao loh -.-
XOXO
tricia

you want doggies?
but i no money ):
i know you are referring to who ...
but i cannot do anything ):
i only can say
iloveyou.. (:

9/7/10

2010-07-09T21:01:00.000+08:00

walked to school carrying my uniform
and my file
damn heavy sia
reached school
after that we sit there...
zhijin came
then sara came
we went to sjab room
then went back
sit there
i saw him (:
wished him good luck for his oral
after flag raising
zhijin and iris chiong go take ss textbook
then i carry zhijin's uniform cover
after that
ss...
talk about declining birth rate
then after that
went back to class
english
got new cher to observe our class
we were like doing our proposal
laugh here and there
...
i acted normal during lessons
i trying to suppress my feelings again...
then after the new cher go
ms sim started scolding us
then had to do reflection
geography
discussed about the project
then learnt about the waterfall
cher teach damn fast la
-.-
mother tongue
teacher never come
opened my chocolate
pei siming go toilet
and when i come back
3/4 of the packet gone
bleah!
did my english
then started staring into space
after that went back to class
went to change
then me and zhijin went down first
after that we went to take attendance file
iris came down le
me and iris went to check on the sec 1's uniform
help them
then after that do damn lots for them
then fall in
after that had first aid lesson
taught the sec 2 bandage
kena bullied sia ._.
then after that
me and zhijin were like looking upstairs
then after some time
me and amalina just stand at the side
blur blur de
senior ask us to take dummy
so go take
he was standing outside
asked jiongyi and nicholas help us take (: thanks kor and my daughter!
then after that put the dummy
head drop off le
-.-
waste our time nia
then went to put back the dummy
he still outside
i looked at him like damn happy sia (:
then went back to the block
mdm asmahan say ask sara return her the laptop
so run back and told her
went back to the classroom
he still there
looked and then dont know where he go le
after that
we gathered at the classroom
mdm asmahan told us we got new teacher
after that fall in at carpark
he was at NPCC room
he walked out
then suddenly run back again
went into SJAB room
debrief
then walked out
removed my beret
and saw him...
argh! unglam! ):
then later we go change
then sit there
stare at NPCC room
saw him ((:
after that we left
went to macdonalds
they force me eat again
didnt eat
so they told that somebody
sir kian leong ask juanqing and sara buy drink for sir tan
actually dont want de
then in the end
sara and iris buy
after that something happened
make me damn uncomfortable
after that go home le
saw him again....
sara did something bad
amalina say hope i dont meet any stalker...
went home
did homework
and i still doing
hehe!
XOXO
tricia

for you!
hope you have done real well in your oral
you surely will get the best results de (:
i really hope something good will happen
really do (:
smile always
i love you (:

8/7/10

2010-07-08T21:22:00.000+08:00

morning,
ate a piece of bread
vomitted it out instead
-.-
then after that went to school
study my ting xie
then iris kao wo! thanks (:
then we went sjab room
cause of jiongyi
need measure his waist -.-
troublesome
then after that came back up class
chit chat a while
then went down to 1/6
passed uniform to fangying
then went back class...
i started feeling damn sick
sore throat, flu, gastric
then later through the lessons
feel so terrible la
almost rest through all the lessons
didnt really pay attention
then after that recess
sat there
see them eat
after that they went to buy drink
then went to class
went for mother tongue
still feeling sick
ting xie
managed to do it
after that do some worksheet
then went back to class for english
i started having headache
edwin kor go tell ms sim
then ms sim let me rest
the skit i also no need perform
then i sleep awake
sleep awake
...
for the 2 whole hours
during that lesson
edwin kor found out i from last night till that timing never eat
then he want me to eat
i dont want
i only scared of someone
and when he ask
i sure eat
if not...
dont know what will happen
then edwin kor know who le
want zhijin they all to tell him
in the end lunch
still ate nothing
in com lab 3
then zhijin smsed him
presented
with no voice
and wrong words in the speech
persevere become preserve -.-
then sit there
mdm asmahan came in
we did our test
clement called me during the test
ignored it
after that when can go home le
then i call him
he said "CC" i heard as "city"
totally blur la
so went to find him with iris
then he playing basketball
so go buy stuff first
then after that me and iris sit there
wait for him play finish
saw sir tan
at 5.30 ++ iris went off
clement, jx , jerome and his friend play finish sit there le
before iris went off
then later they make me sit there for so damn long loh
and a lot of thing happened in between
after that
feel like fainting more
then later went home
finally
at 6 ++
came home
ate a piece of fish
only
i totally no appetite loh ):
post till here le
go do homework!
XOXO
tricia

LIMZHIJIN! i have done what you asked for (:

EDWIN KOR! you happy la! got ppl force me eat le...

to him:
jiayous for your oral tmr! (:
strive hard!
do it once do it well!
i believe you will surely excel de (:
jiayous!

6/7/10

2010-07-06T18:10:00.001+08:00

today morning
went to school
then after that zhijin came
went to the board
and then to sjab room
after that we took the stuff she needed
then sit there and talk
after that flag raising
then pe
went for pe
went to play softball
scream until i sore throat now ):
after that
clement came to find me
cause i angry with him
then i show him attitude
then later become he angry liao loh
now become my fault liao....argh! =x
after that went back to class...
e maths
went to change
after that sit in class and read my storybook
went to mother tongue
need do bao zhang bao dao
me and xiangting there reading storybook
hahaha!
totally ignore our teacher
but at least did one page loh
...
after that recess...
clement ignore me
-.-
wth la
then junxiang bully me loh..
RAWR!
after that is a maths
went through our homework
then chemistry le
did the limiting factor and excess....
then later social studies
nicholas tan was like passing some paper to me
then i keep on editting the name to his
instead of mine
-.-
this carried on the whole lesson
after that did essay
a bit
then go put bag at 4/6
went to find our seniors to give them stuff
then later saw yisong
yisong go announce to guanki i here
bleah!
after that they were like saying stuff here and there
went to put bag
then went for lunch
find clement
and totally ignore me again
pissed off liao loh
then later they finish le
went back to class
sit outside the classroom
kimyew and his friends walked past me
then after that
pei megan walk over to her classroom
walked pass nicholas ee
his friends were like pulling him loh
so sad...
im sorry too...
then later went to class
they keep walking pass our class...
after that i was smsing in class
hehe...
then finished our pc stuff
went to find kor...
but siqi keep stopping me...
after that finally went down
zhijin and iris passed stuff to nicholas ee
i was downstairs
then zhijin and iris call me back up
so went up
then later nicholas' friends were pulling him to me
i quickly run
but that siqi stopped me
cannot move loh ):
then they push him to me...
his leg hit my bag
hope he okay... (:
then geoksoon appeared
ask me why i so many sex band when the band ISNT a sex band -.-
after that i went downstairs and wait for jx kor
then later he totally pangseh me la
call also dont want answer
argh!
fed up sia
then went to lot
went to library
then went to eat
at the lrt station
saw clement
and he avoid me
he good la
-.-
totally not my fault liao
say sorry to him liao
still like that
...
whatever la
i also cannot do anything...
then came home
now doing my draft 2...
hopefully can finish all homework today
...
sure stay up late le ):
haish
post till here bah
XOXO
tricia

LIMZHIJIN!
are you happy now? (:

for you:
i really hope you wont throw the thing away
i really hope you will keep it...
i am sorry for today...
i really am...
please dont be angry
i really like you...
did you even know that?
please dont throw it away okay? (:

2/7/10

2010-07-02T23:03:00.001+08:00

happy happy!
someone taught me maths yesterday!
thanks ((:

zhijin girlfriend!
i love you!
you know what i want to say...
so do it... ((:

today
went to school....
then went to sjab room
saw lizard and scream
then later zhijin scream too
after that
kor came and find me
told him all the stuff
then flag raising
after that social studies
zhijin and iris went to take textbooks
then later got reading and english
in class doing argumentative essay
then recess
ate seaweed chicken
kor and clement threw bottle cap at me
then run away -.-
after that geog
went to com lab 4
and the stupidest mistake happened
my textbook and handphone was underneath
i remember to take my textbook
handphone forgot
then later, i walk then find out
first person that came to mind was
NE ((:
after that ask zhijin call clement
to help me take
went chinese lesson
i sms him
and they really go take
clement, kor and bf...
thank them a lot ((:
after that school end
changed and went to cca
rushed through everything
finally had campcraft
yi song and geok soon came in after quite some time
geok soon was like saying i one leg step two boat when i didnt -.-
then he push the table and hit my head...
later after that i put rubbish under his table
and he slam his leg ._.
and kick the rubbish away...
NE and KY soon appeared
they didnt come in
after some time
they came in..
then later when i talking to sara
geok soon slap the table
and scare me loh...
after that i started having gastric
all the way till end of cca
after cca
sat there
ask kor help me buy drink
drink le, but no effect
only more pain...
so like damn sad de sit there
look at np room...
haish...
damn sian loh...
after that went home le...
in between happened stuff that i cant say =x
XOXO
tricia

i really am waiting
i know it is still in your mind
cause all of your friends know ...
i hope we will be together a lot... ((:

25/6/10

2010-06-26T02:30:00.000+08:00

sian
school starting le
tmr going out
my leg pain like siao
cannot even walk properly
haish
i am totally bored at home loh
i miss my friends
especially my girlfriend, zhijin
((:
this holiday
watched 4 dramas
and tons of movies
...

this morning
slept till 1pm
came out for lunch at 2pm
then watch show
stay in room till 6pm
then bring that dog down
bully me like siao only
):
after that dinner
watched show again
then now still watching ((:

if i ever had a chance, i will surely cherish the chance
i will really cherish it a lot (((:
if you love someone else, i will be there by your side
encouraging you to go to her
i guess, this is what love truly means
if you are sad, i will be by your side...
comforting you...
no matter what happens to you,
i will always be by your side...
cause
i really really love you (:

21/06/10

2010-06-22T00:36:00.000+08:00

happy girlfriend?
i am posting! (:

hahaha
today
went to malaysia
went to watch toy story 3
finally relax a bit
after all me being pissed off for damn long
came home
ate
went to lot one
bought stuff for me ((:
hahaha
then later we went NTUC
and bought all the stuff we wanted
from $10 become $40
hahaha
after that came home
watched movie
and done!
nothing else to say le!
XOXO
tricia

16/6/10

2010-06-16T19:19:00.000+08:00

choojuanqing! study hard! jiayous for your exams! ((:

i have been thinking a lot last night
did i make the correct decision?
hais...
that decision totally put me in a bad mood today
morning
i snooze my alarm from 10.30 all the way till 12.30
then later sara call me
sara and iris go do walkathon
i came out of the toilet
sit in front of the computer
watch my show
all the way...
didnt want to tell ppl why i was feeling sad
dont feel like...
then later sara and iris finish walkathon
then they went lot 1
buy food for me then came
around 4pm then i eat
...
then sit there watch show
then after that went to meet somebody
pass stuff to them
went to book pool
then came up
watch show again
then went down and bring joey down
bring le
sara and iris went home
then i go watch show
and here i am posting...
XOXO
tricia

i really really like you...
i really will wait for you...((:
you are very important in my life....

8/6/10

2010-06-08T22:54:00.001+08:00

today
woke up at 9am
then snooze until 9.30
then later sara call me
then i finally woke up
went to brush teeth
then later sit there
on com
juanqing sms me say change timing
but she never tell iris
so i call iris
then i went to meet her
cause she reaching le
then later we went walking around
damn funny la
i ask my brother to send me the numbers i had on my post it
he go take photo and send to me
so damn lazy loh he...
then later meet juanqing
went to eat
went to buy drink
then went back school
was saying about me and my bro's FB comment
where we were in the same house
but we talked through FB...
was laughing loh...
then later chemistry
me and juanqing chiong and do...
then later sara wanted to meet me and juanqing
then juanqing say she got lesson
in the end
her lesson cancelled
then me and juanqing went bpp
took the same bus with iris and *erhem*
then later went to library
stayed in library to use internet
then later walked around
slack like dont know what
then went bus interchange
there,
we two were talking
then later her bus come
i walk off
the later she was like standing there laughing
cause when she want to board the bus
the bus went off le
then i walk back to her...
chat a bit more
then i went home le...
hais...
post till here le bah
damn sad and no mood
XOXO
tricia

i finally said out,
i am relieved...
but typing that,
it made me cry
am i doing the right thing?
despite your answer,
i am glad we are friends, maybe close friends...
maybe i should think on the bright side
a friendship last longer than a relationship
...
but what if you said yes...
i will wait for you, no matter what you said..

3/6/10

2010-06-03T22:35:00.000+08:00

holidays le!
but holidays like no holidays leh
today woke up at 6.10
then snooze until 7am
then later i blur blur go inside mother's toilet
then blur blur again go inside sister's
like err?
then later parents send me to school
climbing the stairs that time
saw yuelin, puay yun and shuwen
followed them up
then later sit there
stare into mid-space
i was still wondering why iris never come
then i remembered
she went civil defence course
after that....
zhijin and juanqing came
once juanqing came
we like quarrel loh...
then later bio
sian
must shift back to kor there
me and his table got gap in between la
like we dont know each other like that
we never talk through the whole lesson loh
then later i thought english
but was break...
1 hour
so we go buy stuff
take our own sweet time
then later we sit there talk ...
me, zhijin, juanqing and kor...
talk heart-heart and a bit crapping...
then later someone called juanqing
they talked till reach class loh
then me and kor like disturbing her
haha...
then in class
i disturb her some more
then later english
damn sian loh...
we down there playing games
then later do some questions
then go le
me and zhijin chiong out of gate
went to bus stop
then later i sit there
piggy saw me
then was like asking why i so lonely...
gordon went to school
came back to the bus stop and wait with me...
for jq..
worst thing is, the ppl in my chinese class
came out le...
and i pon chinese
and i still at the bus stop...
cheh...
then later esther came
we three wait for jq
and finally she came
i waited for her for 1 hour 30++ mins la!
waste my time
later went to lot
eat
then went to find my daughter
walked around
talked crapped
go inside shops do rubbish
then later megan downstairs
said hi
and then later we went home le loh
...
but today damn fun
hahaha
piggy and me finally talking again...
XOXO
tricia

it is the truth...
really hope you will say yes...
yes...
it means a lot to me...
dont care what exams you have la
just say the truth...

22/5/10

2010-05-22T21:52:00.000+08:00

juanqing! get well soon (:
miss ya on the trip (:
woo!
today
alarm rang at 9am
looked at my phone
message from sir gordon
thought last night one
so snooze my alarm clock
then at 9.30am
i woke up
sms-ed
then later stay in room till 9.50
enjoy air-con
went to bathe
ate my breakfast
watch some show
then later
i wear shoe le
but i forgot to take my hp
ran back to take
then my socks like messy le
nevermind loh
so went to bpp
sara called me
telling me juanqing sick...
meet iris
went to library
went to popular
then went to long john to eat
then later sara say she want to meet us
dont know how to go there
so yeah
told her meet us at phoenix at 2pm
then me and iris decided to walk there
so we go buy thing
go tie my hair
then went to walk there
we sit there
sir gordon told me he would be late
cause he released late
zhijin came
then sara...
told zhijin to change 'happy four friends'
to 'happy five friends'
then she go take photos of sara
then after that we started counting how many 67 buses pass by
1
2
3
4
5
6
7
priya came and join us
then saw sir gordon on his bus
then went to buy stuff
came back
continue counting
8
9
and finally sir gordon came
we wait one hour plus loh!
._.
then later took the 10 bus
went to bukit timah hill
was talking crap
i was crazy
had fun though
we walked till damn hot la
when going up the summit
climb the stairs
and i stepped on mud!
argh
then later went to the summit
went down
went to the quarry road
say play game there
got monkey
we scared till damn funny
we went down
then found out is baboon who have red butt
not orang utan
then gordon say i mix
so i say is orang-boon
gordon say is ba-tan
then we down there laughing
realised we made a mistake =x
then went down the hill
went to the quarry there
was like slacking there
father called me
i say i climbing hill ._.
then dont want go dinner with them
then later we laugh here and there
guess songs
then later we play game
we slack there damn long loh
then later
walked to bus stop
was like laughing on the way there too...
then at the bus stop
sara still playing the same game
when bus came
i said to gordon "eh..get up the bus la!"
then guess what?
the bus drove pass us
then we were like tio shocked
then keep laughing
then later the next bus
told gordon " put your hand out..."
he ignored me
then later the rest all stand up and put their hands out ._.
hahahaha
went up bus
gordon put his hand near "毛毛"
then damn funny
the "毛毛" got off the bus
another "毛毛" sat there, the hair grew shorter
then that "毛毛" left
another one sat there, the hair even shorter
then we were like saying
the next one will be botak
then we laughing like siao loh
crack jokes here and there
gordon say my hair is fake de ._.
zhijin keep pushing me in bus
later she stand behind sara
then she push sara
then later
we go eat dinner
went to food court
eat
then talked and laughed too
then went to buy sweettalk
went to rooftop
and talked
seriously damn fun la
got rat...
damn scared of rats and damn hate them
later laugh here and there
zhijin later face the rat that side
want to see rat loh
...
then after that went home
gordon and me took lrt
he say he dont believe he sms me so much
so he go check...
then 500+ msgs
but is lesser than others loh
came home
nobody at home
dog damn happy to see me loh!
(:
hahaha
post till here le
XOXO
tricia

i havent give up
i am angry with what my sis say about me and you
i have nothing to say
i just love you
but i wont do anything
and wont expect anything
just love you...

18/05/10

2010-05-18T18:55:00.000+08:00

woo! happy birthday junming kor and han lu!
(:
today
went to school with junming kor
he sent me to school
then later me and iris went to find people
then me and syazwani sit there
do nothing
then later after singing national anthem
mr lui came in
collect our files
then we went for our learning journey
we were like walking damn slow behind
then in the bus
had to sit in front
juanqing feed me pocky until poke the back of my mouth
wahlao
damn pain la
then later
laugh laugh laugh
too loud
then get scolded by mr lui
" tricia, behave yourself" then i was like
ok?
later...
zhijin took photo of me
then she asked this : 等一下跟我一起拍照。
i heard till : 白薇秀。
then later zhijin laugh till she drop off the chair
wth...
then we were still laughing like crazy la...
later go the army museum...
i started acting crazy
scare ppl
iris and zhijin say i crazy
then i walk walk walk
suddenly turn around, wanted to shout " who say i crazy?"
then in the end
zhijin got a shocked and jumped
then she push me...
later i go crazy le...
then zhijin keep taking photos...
then we went to the singapore discovery center
listen to talk
then went back to army museum
was like laughing like crazy too
then walked around
watched a movie
the light damn pain
the wind damn shiok
the screaming in the room sucks...
then later we go the cafeteria
the food sucks okay?
then they keep pulling me to take picture...
wth...
then went to the food ration thingy
juanqing was like
sit behind
then i told her
got food to eat
then we went to sit damn front
then later nicholas snatch juanqing's pocky
ate a few only
then when they taking photos of the uniform that time
i go to nicholas
scream at him
why he take away my pocky?
then later went back to the bus
me and juanqing chiong...
then later in the end jiongyi and edwin beat us to it
but we managed to get the back seat
cause jiongyi the only person there
then me and juanqing ying ying zuo na bian
then zhijin and iris also
jiongyi no way to snatch back then move aside...
later in the bus
laugh like siao
juanqing keep spitting water out
after that
reach home
got the what skin care talk
damn sian la...
but got free sample wor
LOL...
after that got AEM talk...
damn sian too
so after the talk
chiong to sj room
to see only 1 sec 1
pathetic right?
hahaha
then later me and juanqing and zhijin went toilet
then me and juanqing and zhijin walked to bus stop
megan and junming there
so me and juanqing board the bus with them
went to lot
went to find nicholas
in the end
junming had to go back to school
then iris came to join us...
we went to eat pizza hut
used nicholas' 50 dollars
in the end..
when we return him money,
too many coins and notes
LOL
then juanqing went to buy ice cream
me, sweettalk
but i dropped mine
hahaha
then later junming came and find us
we wait until can rot loh
junming finally came
covered in flour
i knew it loh...
then i buy another cup of drink
then walked home
raining when almost reaching
nicholas in pain loh
so sad
came home
then sit there watch show
then went down to fish pond
nicholas there fooling la
but glad that he ignored the pain...
then after that they went home le
and then
me,
damn bored now
cause nothing to do...
hais
post till here le
XOXO
tricia

i havent given up on you
i just wont do anything
wont expect anything from you
i know you like someone
but i dont know who
so i dont hope much
just hope you are happy
and me,
i will continue loving you at the side...

13/5/10

2010-05-13T17:45:00.000+08:00

horrible day today!
morning...
got said by my brother
damn bad mood le
went to school
me and iris there bored
staring into mid-space
then later zhijin came
we talked crap
then i cried a little
starting of the day
we have sexuality talk le....
sian
mrs chuah gave us the talk...
damn bored
then later had what copyright infringement talk
wahlao
damn sian la
was there....
eating chocolates...
dont know what to do....
then recess
ate seaweed chicken loh
then juanqing took her own sweet time to finish her drink
cause she want the sec 4 to come down for recess
then i can see someone
but then
didnt
went back class
i started emo-ing
later YOG@CCKSS
i was there crying
cause of the morning thing
first is edwin kor come comfort me
gave me tissue....
thanks kor...
then is juan qing granddaughter
she sat there with me...
nicholas took my ipod touch and play
heard from juanqing he wanted to ask me what happened
but juanqing gave him look then he never ask
but anyway
thanks a lot juanqing...
at least today you didnt bully me
juanqing went back
then came zhijin
she sat there....
saying this and that...
really hit me
cause that was the reason i was crying....
i hour later
end the YOG@ CCKSS
i was still crying
many more ppl come and comfort me...
thanks all those people...
mr kong came then i stopped crying
went to conference room
continued the talk
...
then later went to buy lunch
came home
eat....
my sister making mudpie
then she went to find coffee ice-cream...
came back
still cant find
then we brought joey to esso
i carried joey
she hold umbrella...
then later walked to teck whye...
then came home...
so now i here
damn bored...
dont know what to do...
and i feel like crying again...
argh...
XOXO
tricia

i really hope you would say yes tmr
i really hope you dont like her but like me
i really hope so...
hope you drank the chicken essence
hope you would tell me that you like me
i really really hope so...
cried when i saw you this morning
you should know why...
looking over...
i dont know what you are thinking
but i really hope you like me...
anyway...
jiayous for you last paper!

12/5/10

2010-05-12T17:42:00.001+08:00

wooo! finally....
exam is over....
yesterday after exam still went out with
megan, junming kor and juanqing grand daughter
in the end
i got bullied
i treated juanqing and megan ice cream....
wth....
they keep saying about *erhem* loh
make me so damn pissed....
grr...
then went home, junming kor send me home
then i study geography
with yangxuan counselor online
well
he really helped me....
then this morning
junming kor send me to school
cause i had fever and was feeling giddy last night....
then he worried
so he came and bring me to school
then later studied....
zhijin came
i wrote post it for him
then juanqing came
they bring the thing to him
pass it to someone
and then end up in somebody's else possession
instead of the main person that i wanted to give
then i learnt it in the exam hall
was self -studying
jin suay loh, sit beside nicholas tan there...
then read my notes....
was like angry la....
then later study
study
lit paper start
history paper start
geog paper finally start
i chiong...
was quite easy loh...
then left 10 minutes for me to slack
then i saw nicholas tan crying...
i was resisting not to laugh la...
wth...he suddenly look over and cry...
then later he saw me looking then we laugh...
then paper end....
collect paper
then ask him why he cry
he say he too happy that is why he cry
then we laughing there loh...but
history ppl havent end
but we still continue laughing...
then end school
went to staff room
take the files
then went to 3/5 to do filing
after filing
went out with joceleen and iris
juanqing pangseh us....
then went to lot 1 buy stuff
then they came my house...
sit there eat
watch show
then went to play pool
came back up and eat again....
then joceleen went back to school
iris went to check stuff for her sister...
then i damn bored le...
nothing to do....
and i still feeling feverish...
sick sick sick....
i feel damn sad too....
nevermind
post till here le
XOXO
tricia

i really want to know if you have girlfriend or not
i want to know what really happened on saturday
i want to know....
i hope you drank the chicken essence
hope you accepted the band too (:
jiayous for your last paper....
should be chicken feet for you bah =x

8/5/10

2010-05-08T23:25:00.000+08:00

i am still sick....
today dont know what time i woke up loh
then later eat lunch
sit there watch 3 series
i slacking a lot la
instead of studying
...
then went to grandma's house
wanted to cut hair de
but the shop close down le ....
so in the end
went to buy stuff
then went to eat
...
dinner was fun!
after that went to the central
in the end
walk halfway
then say go up my grandma's house
went to grandma's house
my cousins watch show
then i sit there do nothing
later after that
8.20
went home
cause my parents going out
came home
watch show
then bored le...
hais
anyway
when i said that 田七 helps to let ppl grow
i mean it!
hahaha
sara bought it
juanqing cannot drink
too bad...
my cousin went to buy la
and he grew okay
me too!
sian
super duper sian now...
hais
nevermind
post till here le
XOXO
tricia

jiayous for your exam....
i really hope you will say something
and answer me after your exam
i really hope so
i really do love you
seeing you smile
seeing you
motivates me
a lot
people say about you
i get angry with them
but i love you for who you are
i really do...
think about you every time
i really wish you will say yes...
and i miss you a lot!

5/5/10

2010-05-05T21:25:00.000+08:00

wooo post post time!
have been busy the pass few few days...
&& i am sick sick sick! hais
cross country is over
have to prepare for sports day
got sun burnt on cross country...
hais
sian...
yesterday was suan-ed by yong hui
and reminded that i was shouting something few days back
when xiangting, juanqing, yonghui, sara, iris eating ice cream
then they bully me...
shout that thing got wrong meh??
okay
today
went to school
i was walking behind iris
and she didnt see me ._.
blur queen
then sit there
talk talk talk crap
then felicia came to find us
then she saw how clumsy i was when i was looking at him
i almost spoilt the ipod touch
then we dont there laughing...
wth
okay
had bio lesson first
nicholas tan took my ipod touch to play....grrr
super sian
went through tys
then e maths
sit there
do revision
then recess
told juanqing they all i dieting
then they force me to eat
use food to ying you wo...
but in the end
only drank soya milk
after that
had pe
a super funny joke was talked about
lazy change to pe
so didnt
then me and zhijin
hold hands from foyer walk all the way to void deck
then we there talking crap with clarissa and junwen and junming kor
iris and juanqing down there acting out the couples in our class
then suan me....
later a maths
was laughing
then mr lui ask me give out the paper...wth
the others bully me some more
put more paper on my stack
hais...then finally give out all loh
got back a maths test
29/40
luckily
cause i never study
was chiong-ing proposal the day before
...
then later reading
talk here and there
i was reading manga
...
then later get suan-ed by the boys...
bully me la
so damn bad
didnt lend them ipod touch
cause i was complaining how my brother scolded me yesterday
for using until no battery
then later social studies
went to english room
woo
air - con
then later english
me and juanqing quarrelling over where to go...
west mall or lot 1
we quarrelled damn long la
went for lunch
ate seaweed chicken
then later chemistry
chemistry over then wait for juanqing
walked pass his class
but he having exams
didnt know wor
...
then later put files in the cher pigeon hole for the higher mother tongue de
then went home
super sian
watch show
then later
mother scold me
say i selfish
wth la
siblings my age got maid
then i dont have
never do housework say i selfish...
argh
forget it
then study until now...still studying
my bio can fail le loh
know nuts what the cher teaching
so must mug le...
post till here le
XOXO
tricia

yeah, i still love you
a lot....
i have not given up....
although you give me blank answer
i am waiting
i dont want to give up on you
you are worth my time
seriously worth it
cried when i saw photos of you damn close with girls
then others scolded me for crying over that
...
many ask me to give up
i ignored them
and believed my heart
i dont want to give up on you
your friends say you dont like me
but i dont know to believe or not
i seriously dont know
even so
i will still love you a lot....
jiayous for your exam....
think about what i asked you...
i really hope that you think that i wont affect your studies
cause i wont
...
really...
believe me will you?
open up to me will you?
i really really do love you (:

10/4/10

2010-04-10T23:12:00.000+08:00

hais...
back le
wanted to go out today
but in the end
didnt
LOL
woke up at 1pm
cause my brother came in
ask me what i wanted to eat for lunch
grumpy
didnt answer him
instead said anything
then went back to sleep
in the end
couldnt sleep
so came out of the room
ate lunch
watch show
iris sent me my proposal
then i edit it
edit until went to the party
my granduncle's grandchild 1st month
went there
damn hot
didnt eat
didnt feel like
bored there loh
went to bpp afterwards
for the air con
ate ice cream
was playing tap tap revenge
than later after that came home...
sit at the com
finish editting le
woohoo
finally
may need to think more
LOL
still need draw
now still playing games
haha
till here le
XOXO
tricia

zhijin you happy le ma?

i am confused
i want you to be happy
even if you accept that junior
i wont say anything
i want you to be happy
although i really wish you will think about what i said
not april fool joke
really mean it
i need help...lots of help
i am super jealous...
super scared now...
anyway
jiayous for your exams!
excel in every one of them! (:

to siqi:
thanks a lot for everything you had done for me
supporting me
but i dont know what made you change your mind
just like that...
leaving me in the lurch
when i needed the most help with him
thanks a lot for leaving me there...
well you did it
you conquered you quest
of making fun of me!
yeah
nice one seh...
you thought his point of view
but mine?
you think i didnt think about his?
i care about his studies more than you care for him
i care about him more than you
he is very precious to me
did you even know what i felt when you said all those words?
yeah, thanks a lot seh...

22/3/10

2010-03-22T21:41:00.000+08:00

heyy
back to post le
today, first day of school
went to school
first thing
got bullied...
or rather
suan-ed...
then later
read my storybook
attire check
i passed!
then later a maths
kor bullied me!
big bully!
didnt know time table changed
after e maths
chemistry
went through worksheets
then later recess
ate
then went back to class
had oel
did comprehension
then i was chiong-ing my chemistry
finished it
then a maths
then ... came and find me
took my phone
then later english
continued reading my storybook
then later mother tongue
went through zuo ye
still reading my storybook
...
lunch
.... came and return me my phone
then
went out to eat
cause school nothing to eat
after that
chiong back
cause raining ma
...
then later sit in class....
kor tried to cheer me up because of his replies
and what.... did...
then later mother tongue
finished going through zuo ye
then went home
sheltered joceleen until the staircase
pei them go bus stop
got suan-ed by dennis about him
asking what i love about him
...
so bad la
bully me...
went home
wet....
finally read finish my story book loh
so thats all....
XOXO
tricia

i have to clear up this mess
i dont even know you like me or not
want to be with me or not...
i really do love you
really really want to be with you
i promise that if we are together
your studies will not be affected...
i cant promise you that...
i didnt send those messages
believe it or not
i really didnt..

17/3/10

2010-03-18T00:49:00.000+08:00

haha
today
went to school
using new bag
bought at bugis ytd de
8 start lesson
had bio
sian de yao ming
was yawning
then had a maths
okay okay la
then later break
went down
first thing
saw his friends
then like shit...
then later iris and juanqing queue for food
then his friends go gather
and plan something
...
as they queuing
they say what he in class waiting for girl
i didnt hear that part
as i was there 'ahhhhhhh!'
heard from zhijin they asked whether i jealous already or not...
of course i am la!
then later
sit there
then juanqing
take my hp to np there
then they take
dont want to return to me
in the end they pass to peising
who returned to me
luckily they didnt see what was on it....
heng arrr...
LOL
continue a maths
then biology...
did experiment
then end le
went to teck whye
bought stuff
for bro and me
then went home loh
at home
took my bro's phone and sms
a lot...
haha
my sms going to exceed le
so i saving
use my brother's!
haha
until here only la
XOXO
tricia

if i could go back in time, i would still do the same thing to you....
i dont regret anything i did
confessing, giving you love letters, present
but i regret something
annoying you, im sorry for that....
i really love you a lot...
i really do...
&& i am not despo!

15/3/10

2010-03-16T02:46:00.000+08:00

hais...
sad sad life
damn bored life
stupid life
i feel like taking my life
argh..
i miss him (:
going to go out with jq tmr
past few days went off in a buzz
i really wish i would see him in school the last day of school
but i didnt...sad....
is crying over him wrong?
i dont know loh
i cant control my tears
him knowing my affections for him
i have done what i can
i cant control him
he may want to concentrate on his studies
well i hope he will too....
and i also hope he likes me and be with me....
if he really likes me
all i hope is to hear him like me
just to hear him liking me will really make me go crazy happy
i know love cant be forced
even if he likes me
so what?
i dont even know anything....
his choice
we arent together...
i wish we were,
but all i hope now is him saying he likes me too....
but yeah
i really love him
if not
why am i crying over him?
i have never cried over a guy so much before loh
my dear HEIDI
say i go crazy already
and is really crazy
hais....
i am seriously crazy over him that i go crazy
am i really crazy?

sorry if i had annoyed you
i am seriously sorry....
i just want to do all that i can
to really let you know that i love you
and...
i dont like him, you think i do but i dont
i only love you seriously....
well, all i can say now is...
do well in your studies (:
jiayous!
&& i love you lots ;D

XOXO
tricia

10/3/10

2010-03-10T17:18:00.000+08:00

heh, today actually got sports day de
so
morning woke up at 5.20am
then went to school
father send me there
then later put all the stock in the bus
took the bus to clementi stadium
sad-ed la
rained so mr liew canceled the sports day
so sit there
then i sms
that person ask me go down take something from him
he sitting with his friends
sure sabo me de
so in the end
i didnt go
although zhijin keep pushing me to go
haha
now i regret
like a lot de a lot
...
after that waited waited waited
took the bus back to school
then leeleng sms me saying got 1 pouch missing
so we run around school find....
the class watching up...
then later we go eat burger
laugh laugh laugh...
cracked jokes in class
played around in class
PE
mr liew came in and talked
den lauren said something about me and ** being couple
then i go shout 'i love ..... not **'
then they like ohhhh....
laughed after that
went to library...
sat there
playing iris' phone
juanqing take my phone
then later return to class
laugh some more
then chemistry
after chemistry ms sim came in
then went home le
went to lot with juanqing
went to library loh
then went to buy food for my brother
...
went home after that...

i dont know
i think my laughter sounds so wrong
so fake...
yangxuan said he heard me shout...
a lot ppl say i shout very loud....
i dont know...
nabillah asked me to stand at parade square and shout
but this...
i shouted in class instead...
ahhh!
i cant forget
i cant give up on him
and i dont want to...
hais....

XOXO
tricia

5/3/10

2010-03-05T18:44:00.000+08:00

ha!
finally got my hard lens yesterday
this morning wear like not comfortable
chat with iris till 12 midnight...
morning
went to school early
sit there listen music && me and iris staring at each other
then we start our quarrel about the timing...
later zhijin and syazwani came at the same time
then zhijin needed to go for maths
then she waited for winnie come then go
...
chased her away
then later siti came
talked and help them revise ss
then later me and syazwani went toilet
the other time
it was me holding the ss paper
now it was her turn....
then go toilet
no toilet paper
so wanted to go the other toilet
and there
syawani: eh...
then i turned and saw him
him him him! he didnt see me though i think
then later i run up
...
ncc was there dancing
after that i was standing outside the toilet
looking at him
dots
then went down
ncc was still dancing
i resisting not to laugh
then went back..
say i saw him then later when want to flag raising le
i told zhijin han lu and juanqing almost took photo yesterday
then zhijin ask what photo
i say nuo zhao (naked photo)
then she cant stop laughing le
then iris said
better dont make her laugh
if not sing national anthem
she will keep laughing
and guess what
she did....
went for mother tongue
my hair almost got cut
then later got ppl find me
ask me go down
i didnt
then start writing the letter
ss
didnt pay attention
then later we recess
i walked out of the classroom
looked at third floor and shouted..
then went for recess
then later reading
still writing
maths
finished writing
got back a maths test
28/30...then later me and zhijin go pass the letter to him
english
cher scold us
actually is scold nicholas, jiong yi, edwin, firdani and suntha that group
then scold end
me and juanqing went canteen first
do my public duty stuff
then juanqing go pei zhijin, iris and priya train voice
then later i go find them
me and afiqah sit there type the name out
then later afiqah went in
i sit there emo
then almost on the verge of crying le
zhijin go pull me say why i emo
then really cry le...
but stopped after that
i didnt want them to worry so much about me
...
went lot after that
didnt eat
went to library
sit there
read books
cried a bit
juanqing say my eye teary...
i dont know loh.
then later went to buy food and went home...

gave him a letter today
my first thought: sure get a negative reply le.
have i lost so much self-confidence in myself?
dont dare to ask the answer...
i want to be with him,
i really do
cause i really love him....

XOXO
tricia

1/3/10

2010-03-01T20:48:00.000+08:00

happy birthday joey! finally 10 le!
old dog (: live long yeah?
if she can answer
i will be so damn shocked
today
went to school
hate my lens
cause one soft lens
one hard lens
grr
one clear
one blur
a maths
bored to death
then later recess
ate noodle
then went back to class
bio
go bio lab
then zhijin they all saw his class
then like ehh
his class leh
where he?
then i hide my face
cut potato strip to do experiment
then later english
wanted to go com lab
but in the end
go library
laugh until like siao....
damn crazy laughters...
we wrote rubbish on papers
then threw it away after that
mother tongue
we made teacher give us ting xie first
then we go through textbook
then do zuo ye
asked xiangting sms me the answer when she do in the afternoon
in the end
she didnt write down
...
so damn bad
then later e maths
relief cher
cause mr lui sure lazy come in for half and hour de
then we do activity
do only first part of the first question
then recess
and then went to science center
quite fun loh
make all types of thingy
very fun
then the glass so damn smelly de bleh
the cool cream so damn shiok de...
so fast make it de
then wait for bus
they say what
eh, nicholas scare away the bus la....
then make us wait quite long then the bus came
i was like so damn bored so keep saying
'suntha act cute'
then went back school
go buy sweet
then went home...
did chinese then
was pissed off over some stupid quarrel
if this continues,
i may just flare up
hais....
XOXO
tricia

i really love you, i really do, believe me seh....

26/02/10

2010-02-27T00:15:00.001+08:00

heyy
back to posting...
today
actually had 3 test
in the end only 2
so ya
ss
okay okay la the test
then recess
ate little, could not finish
then reading was bored to death
read the article and got a headache...
*ouch*
then e maths and a maths
cher go through a maths
den test
was day dreaming
didnt do the last question
again....
then oel
did things about LOVE
then the whole class like argh...
dont want to say
dont want to get killed
cca....
sian de yao ming
did footdrill with sec 4
den later raining
go canteen
then actually want to do home nursing
then later in the end sit at canteen
juanqing and sara started laughing, then pulled melissa in
i was there talking crap and laughing too
but then dont know what came over me
suddenly break down
they laughing, i crying...
i could not find anyone to lean on in the canteen loh
was just like sitting closely to myself emoing...
the 3 girls tried to make me laugh...
but i could not
then later
i was pissed off by their laughing
and just nice zhijin sit there
so went to sit in between zhijin
then finally finally broke down
and broke out in tears
sorry if i scared you all...
i couldnt help it
i have bottled up my feelings too long le
so just broke out
later esther brought me to wash my face
she actually wanted me to rest de
but i didnt want to,
thanks my dear jieh (: if you still are (:
then later in sjab room
talk about things
then after that chiong to change
and went to bbh
didnt buy anything
went to sweettalk
juanqing bought cheese fries
then me and sara stealing her food...
then later we walk home
sent iris to bus stop first
then walked home
crap a lot
cause i needed to regain my laughter
if not, parents will suspect...
then finally regained it a bit...
cant help but feel sad at times
jerome comforted me again
thanks (:
you are seriously my good ____ (:
thanks to all those people who keep supporting me
comforting me when i needed them
well, thanks sir gordon, for trying to lift my spirits too
by telling me jiayou go try SHELL pertrol...
tests tests tests finally over soon
next week 2 more...
sjab, more work to be done soon...
thanks buddy, yihui, zhijin, iris, sara, juanqing, melissa, amalina, siewshuen....
thanks a lot...
although i havent really regained my happiness
but thanks...
maybe i wont be sad but be damn crazy...
XOXO
tricia

22/2/10

2010-02-22T18:43:00.000+08:00

happy birthday wenling (:
hehe
last night slept at 12
right after sending wenling the happy birthday message
this morning didnt want to wake up
went to school earlier a bit
didnt see iris
only her bag
then went to carpark porch
cause iris there
felicia they all training
then we give them our opinions
then sit at parade square after that
zhijin came
followed her to toilet
came back
then me and zhijin playing
she hit me
i hit her
play until my hand red
then girl guide's and scout's day
then mrs chua talk so long
then went back class
jiong yi and edwin pissed me off
then i shout
then mr lui change me seat
grr....
then the whole maths lesson i so damn quiet
edwin sit my seat
search my bag
and ate my chocolate!
grr....
edwin told me something that made me emo loh
recess
didnt eat
thinking too much le
after that
biology
cher never come
mr woo relief our class
then later ms tan came in told us need do work
so i chiong (:
in the end finished it
english
ipw discussion
went to the group
went crazy
remembered the joke iris and jiahui cracked

jiahui: go sudan for what? sun tan arr?
iris: what? then you come back what colour?

iris is racist!
....
jkjk nia
laugh until like siao
mother tongue
boring!
cher talk talk talk
then
e maths
edwin go slap my face!
emo the whole lesson
was smsing zhijin cause she asked me too...
then jiong yi there keep saying
"use handphone la!"
then end school
went to food court
walk here and there
in the end no chemistry
so after that went for chinese....
cher talked about article
then went home
forgot to call heidi
in the end still stay home....
i am bored...
joey bully me
cause she getting older
soon 6 more days....
she is old!
but i love her (:
she bring me joy when i am sad loh
it is like she can sense when i am sad
when i am happy
....
my beloved dog....
i am hungry loh
no food seh
so damn hungry la....
hehe i post till here le
cause i go study
XOXO
tricia

20/2/10

2010-02-20T22:53:00.000+08:00

heyy....
back....
today was bored
went to dad's boss de house
then didnt eat
cause no appetite.
then went to my grandaunt's house
sad there quite a while
after that went to orchard
waste time and parking fee....
cause stay there like 15 minutes then went off le
actually wanted to just send my sis there de
....
in the end go park car...
then after that
went to IKEA
stayed there quite a bit
like a few hours
then bought the yusheng
for today
and tmr also....
hais....
eating chocolates is no use!
i cant be happy eating chocolate....
thanks edwin for the chocolates
thanks all those who try to make me happy
thanks to all those who resist my anger
thanks to all those who do not get angry with me
when i am rude to you all....
i wish you will stop treating me negatively
i wish we will be together
i seriously do wish that....
seeing how xiangting scratch herself
i want to do that myself
using the penknife.....
ahhh!
i going crazy le....
XOXO
tricia

tag replies:

juanqing: don't sad.. JIAYOU
tricia: hais....hope so....

Vivian: Hello Tricy! ^.^
tricia: heyy...stop acting cute....(:

xuan: relink me girl. dun sad i tell u. IT DOESNT WORTH. takekaiire ^^
tricia: relink-ed le....is it really not worth it? i dont think so loh, although it made me so sad...

14/02/10

2010-02-14T23:09:00.000+08:00

heyy peeps!
happy chinese new year and happy valentine's day!
today
i awoke at 7.48am
then went back to sleep
haha
then 10 woke up
went to church
got bullied by my brother in church
haha
then went to grandma's house
ate so much food
then went to my grandaunt's house
my uncle made my cousin cry.....
joked and my cousins gambled
i wont have the chance to gamble (:
cause parents dont like
and i dont want to....
LOL
then after that
went back to my grandma house again
ate junk food again!
hais
then went to my the other grandma house
ate steamboat
haha
only ate the abalone
LOL
then later i keep eating junk food with my cousin
then watch show.....
then after that came home liao
....
sad right?
hais....
so little hong baos....
whats worst is my hand have few scars
cause
LIM ZHIJIN
i ask her scratch one time
she go scratch me five times
then leave scars and i have to lie to my parents....
but after all that happened
i feel that what she did is right...
i cant make up my mind whether to ask or not
i have never felt so sad for a chinese new year before
even though my ex broke up with me before chinese new year
but i have never felt so lonely and sad before....
my cousin knows what is happening to me
but when we see each other
we keep quiet
cuase i thinks he knows that he cannot say out a single thing
if not i will start crying
start getting emo again
my cousin knows that i am there
feeling lonely
thanks cousin for all that you did for me (:
you are seriously a good cousin (:
going around getting hong baos
i got bullied by cousins but not the one who cares for me
although getting bullied lifts my spirits a bit
i am still not in the chinese new year mood.....
i feel so argh!
as much as i want to know his answer
i dont have the guts to ask him
as i am afraid i will cry once he answers me
my cousins says
if he is really jioing someone
and then he accepts me
i am just substituting the girl
i get that part
but i really hope it is not this way
even if he accepts me....
he thanked me for my present.....
what does it mean?
nothing right?
zhijin said he smiled when she passed him my present
is she trying to lift my spirits?
or is it true?

thanks jayden and ryan!
you have given me good advice when i am feeling down
feeling upset
trying to lift my spirits
but i could not....

thanks all those in school trying to make me happy
but all you see is a 'fake tricia'
i havent been really happy these few days.....
getting angry for no rhyme or reason
and at the cny celebration....
i couldnt help but feel sad....
cause it is like
i suddenly feel lonely
me sitting there
playing with my nametag
i have been eating a lot of chocolates
these few days
but nothing is working to make me happy
....

did you know when i see you outside of your classroom, my heart became happy
not sad anymore
seeing you, lifts my spirits....
timothy say i am not sure of this relationship
or my love to you
cause i did not tell my parents
but i think they know
when i talk to my cousin about you
they read it....
i take relationships seriously
timothy says i took it too seriously already
but i guess this is what i am
only too you, i feel so serious....
i dont know why....
i wrote another confession....
only iris, juanqing and maybe zhijin knows about it
i really cant stop my tears when i am thinking about you...
cause of what you said
saying you dont like me....
treating me negatively
all these stuff
i feel so miserable
zhijin trys to cheer me up....
but i cant be happy....
i broke down in front of zhijin just the other day
crying during my chinese supp
and the next day
i go crazy
cny eve
drank red wine
tried to drain my sorrows
but in the end
i only act siao
nothing else
....

5/2/10

2010-02-05T22:38:00.000+08:00

heyy
back to posting today....
hais
went to school early
talked to junming
then iris came
blah blah blah
went to com lab 4 chinese recording
after that had ss test
wrote till like siao
recess
juanqing eat so damn lot la
....
reading
i was chiong-ing my summary
suppose to hand in next week de
e maths
once cher write down what homework
me and melissa
chiong like siao
a maths
i also chiong
left 2 questions
....
then oel
i was still doing my maths
talked about respect for animals
...

CCA
had fun doing pt
once in a while loh
then after we were dismissed
the thing started again
they carried him towards me
i seriously cant do anything
ppl call me a liar
i dont care
cause i already did my best....
just that someone stopped me...
what can i do?
did maths while wait for time to pass
finally left the canteen
went to bus stop
called junming a betrayer
sorry junming
i know you didnt
but i seriously going crazy already
i dont know what is wrong with me
i seriously dont know
i cant keep supressing my feelings anymore
i emo
i scratch myself
did you know that?

bus stop
np people came out
you didnt
i didnt want you to miss your bus again like on wed
so i wanted to go
later sara say what she take 985
they keep making me not cross the road to wait for my father
cause you were there....
your friends ask me
'you waiting for _____ arr?'
i answered ' no, my father.'
but deep in my heart
_________________
i seriously dont know whats wrong with me
you told me you dont like me
fine
i get emo
then what?
expect you to really like me?
it must be my foolish thinking,
i am going crazy
i may cut myself anytime soon loh
i wish wish wish we may ______ ......
answer your own answer
i do not want any remarks from others
i only know now
i wont give up
deep down in my heart, there will always be a place for you
no one can replace you......
passing by your classroom, letting me see an empty classroom,
made my heart sink....
hais....
XOXO,
tricia

30/1/10

2010-01-30T00:53:00.000+08:00

haha! just came back from my cousin's bdae party
happy birthday yuan shan!
although she wont read this
been kind of emo lately
suppressing my spirits lately
i have never felt so sad you know
people who have been around me
helping me, thanks a lot
people who are concerned for me
confiscating all the sharp objects
thanks!
zhijin: ha, thanks for giving me the penknife.....
it is not funny that i really want to scratch myself
i just dont know how to explain loh.....

busy lately,
homeworks
test
everything
hais
.....
wont be posting much though...
XOXO
tricia

11/1/10

2010-01-11T21:27:00.000+08:00

first post in the new year
haha
i have been super lazy this few days
lazy to on com
so i never upload loh
den this blog like dead la
haha
today
went to school
super pissed off
den after that
went to canteen to finish vivian's present
den later flag raising
first had em class
damn boring
den el
also boring
den later bio
learn about cells
den did compo
had mother tongue and ss after that
so damn bored
den had some chem
for the test tmr
den i went to find joceleen
den we went lot for pizza
den went to sweettalk
i treat her
haha
den went home
came home and watched momo love last episode
den after that went to celebrate my bro's o level result
just come back....
next time then post bah!
XOXO
tricia
P.S: i had a fun day on saturday....thanks hweeru, yihui, syazwani and sara!

12/12/09

2009-12-12T22:46:00.000+08:00

attended a wedding this morning
it ended at 12.12pm
they talked about love
all i can think about is how my family dont love me
they can think of ways to let my grandpa get the phone i want
and what i get?
nothing
nothing at all
i wanted the phone for months already
and now what?
i get nothing
grandpa are meant to love their grandchild
but i dont think so
no one loves me in this family
i get bullied too
after getting the phone
my brother still want to snatch with me for the latest plan to change phone
den now what
i have to wait till june to change
want me to wait 10 months to change
idiot la!
how they treat me today
i am damn sure they dont love me
cause of this
i finally know they surely dont love me at all
i do all the housework
i am the most tired among the siblings and they still want me to go do all the housework
like what?
i am a maid arr?
maid gets a pay
i dont
i want the phone
and they dont give me
and then go say me what
my grandpa want phone for 2 years le
den i always get the best phone
but i dont
i want a PDA phone
a PDA phone is the best phone
among the phones in my house
my phone is the lousiest
and whats more
my brother want to change when his phone is better than mine 100 tims
and what
how would an old man know how to use PDA phone?
i want that phone and he got that phone purposely
i cant get what i want no matter what
but when my brother or sister wants
they get it
on the spot!
what is this?
what life is this?
i think a maid's life is even better than mine la!
what is this seh?
i get scolded for nothing
i get nothing for doing all the housework
the phone i want
get snatched by my grandpa
and i have to wait 6 months
my brother's phone is better than mine
and he gets to change it first
mine
the colour is fading
all the functions are getting outdated......
i try to make it fashionable but no matter what
it is an old product while my brother's is a PDA phone with a keypad
mine is not
i want the HTC Tattoo
and i dont get it
my grandpa get it
now i am damn sure my family dont love me at all.
i want to run away from home loh
ever since the renovation last year
my sis gets what she wants
i dont
when the payment is made by my parents
see the difference?
XOXO
tricia

23/11/09

2009-11-23T17:24:00.000+08:00

happy birthday wanyin!

today
woke up at 8am
went to meet yuelin they all at lot 1
vivian, me, yuelin, ziru, enid, fangying
went SPCA
on the way there
ziru saw centipede
den keep screaming
haha
couldnt do volunteer work
so walk around and play with the dogs and cats loh
after that
went AMK hub
went to eat pepper lunch
den later walk around
damn cold seh
den enid share with me my shawl
den vivian extra go pull the other side
bleh
after that
went to buy shihlin
5 person share one pack loh
den after that
sweettalk
they all take and drink
then later went to arcade
play like siao
play until hand damn pain
den change pencils and rubber bands
LOL
i paid $6 sia
haha
den on the way home on the mrt
we were talking about finger nails
den talk about ring
say need 4 important things to propose
den later we joke alot
den chat about what type of guys we want
den vivian said about what type of girl he want
LOL
den he is like saying crispan's blurness
deshun's skinny-ness
yifei's suan-ness
and a lot more
den we laugh like siao in the mrt
den ppl stare at us loh
reached home at about 4.30
joey keep on smelling me like i stranger like that
cause i touch another dog ma
den later do housework
den now online and post loh
thats all for today
damn tired loh
XOXO
tricia

17/11/09

2009-11-17T15:31:00.000+08:00

pardon me for being so lazy to post
(:
haha
okay la
i damn lazy la
holiday still have cca
still have lessons
still need to do housework
sian diao
aiyo
i want new wallet
new bag seh
....
today
went to lot with enid and emerson
go buy presents for ppl
den after that
enid follow me go buy stuff
den go buy lunch den came home
went to library b4 that
but only enid borrowed books
not me
sad.
no books to read seh
tomorrow got cca
sian
go cca only do the same stuff
why dont just cut short the cca?
so sian la
going to SPCA on the 23rd
ling not going i think
den 25th got flag day
ahhh!
i going mad liao la
holiday like no holiday leh
also no one ask me to go out
very sian
at home
face computer
television
sian diao.....
watching So Im Not Handsome
introduced by wenling (:
haha
finishing le
cause at home do nothing ma
i want go shopping!
LOL.
i got nothing to say liao
ciao!
XOXO,
tricia

30/10/09

2009-10-30T21:09:00.000+08:00

haha
enjoyed my birthday
thanks to all those who gave me presents (:
those who owe me
haha
return me!
today last day of school
did spring cleaning ans went to national museum
didnt get into one of the gallery
took lots of photo
but i lazy update
took photo with kimberly and vivian
only
i got into pure bio with geo
others in pure physics
so class next door
but still hang out ma
can de ma
(:
zhijin appeal to go pure bio
sure can de la
jiayous zhijin
!
yesterday
ms lim treat us to pizza
today
after school go my house
play pool
den badminton
i damn pissed la
we inside the court
den got ppl come steal
argh!
den got stupid ball hit me
i almost scolded them like siao la
go die la
make me so pissed
after that
we came home
and ate chips
den enid and joceleen went home
den later wenling went home
den i watch lots of show (:
haha
den later i online and start worrying about KOTO test
ahhh!!!
going out after that
parents not home
so later then tell them
(:
i want presents!
haha
XOXO
tricia

P.S
schools' out
fun is in
hope we still will hang out more than we did the last time (:
wenling, joceleen, enid, etc... thanks for the priceless fun you gave me
i hope we will still hang out more!
especially wenling joceleen and enid....
i seriously will miss 2/4'o9!

19/10/09

2009-10-19T19:12:00.001+08:00

heyy....
back!
haha
today went out with zhijin
to kranji and lot 1
suppose to go bugis de
but didnt
never mind loh
haha
we meet
den later go eat
i didnt eat
den later after that we went kranji
someone went home go sleep
den me and zhijin shop damn long
but she only buy 1 shorts
den we go back to lot
saw kimmy and nora
den zhijin go eat again
den go bega
and den this fashion
den she pangseh me
so i go buy my food
and went home loh
suppose to meet heidi de
but late le so never
anyway
i need go rest le
bye
XOXO
tricia

~~had a fun day with you~~
hope we can do this again
but next time
hope it can be only the two of us

17/10/09

2009-10-17T23:39:00.000+08:00

I am sick sick sick ._.
and i hate my life
argh!
i cant believe it
i am sick and i still have a first aid exam
argh!
didnt went to cca on friday
couldnt take it anymore
wenling asked me to go home
so i did
in the end
came home and sleep
from 3 sleep until around 7 plus
lols
cause i am sick!
today
worst day ever
woke up
read my storybook in air con room
den finally went out
den i was like
i wanna die already
dying soon
...
den my brother ask me go die
grr!
ate lunch
no taste
cant taste anything now
my tongue has no taste buds
LOL
ate burger king for dinner at jurong point
went shopping
i bought stuff
what i tasted in burger king was only
onion and onions
LOL
i want to taste food!
now i am hungry
someone get me food
sis not home yet
so late and she is still not home
hais
i miss her
lols
cause she is my only sister
haha
friday
before oral
vivian say i look like ghost
emerson say i look like the 7th month thing
grrr
den later no oral
my sound change
i cant hear myself speak
cause i am sick
i havent go see doctor
lol
cause i am lazy
ate father's medicine
and guess what
my eyes become swollen and i have rashes
too strong
and now i am damn lazy
and damn weak
dont even have the strength to wash clothes
argh
and i am like a pig
sleep sleep sleep
lol
today
woke up and feel giddy
almost fainted
but kept mouth shut
didnt tell anyone about it
and i am bored now
give me some excitement
my life is a bore
and i hate it!
argh
maybe i am mad
maybe i am a ghost
lols
vivian looked funny wearing that glasses
and we planned to have party on tuesday
but now
it is ruined!
cause of first aid exam
argh
i cant believe it!
it was the only day we were all free
and now it is ruined!
argh!
my brother say i owned the ocbc bank and asked me for money
in the end
we quarrel lol
and my father went to take the car
but the car key was with me
and i was blur la
den he blame me
argh!
i can tell you one thing
i hate my family too
and a bug is crawling up my screen...
get a life
pardon me for typing sms slow cause i am weak
so yeah
i am weak and
i need my sleep!
nights
XOXO
tricia

~~argh!~~
i cant believe i dont have the guts
give me some braveness to admit to you
i am scared of getting rejected by you
i will never be able to take it
and we will never be friends
so tell me what should i do?
kill myself?
believe me i am dying...from the flu!

13/10/09

2009-10-13T17:20:00.000+08:00

Yeah! exams over liao!!!
shiok arrr!
lols
today
raining and mother didnt want to send me to school
sad
lols
go school
joceleen ignore me
den later maths paper 2
okay okay la
den recess
we kai party again
lols
den later science paper 1
okay also la
do damn fast
den later maths paper 1
i also do damn fast
den later ppl say i siao
after that
go with joceleen to find zhijin
den later we go eat lunch
den me and zhijin went to lot 1
den walk here and there
went library
den went to pasar malam
zhijin eat food
den i keep saying
dont eat corn cause the guy who pluck corn
make his nose and pluck de
lols
den later go mac
saw sara
den xiang ting came and returned me money
den later she never bring money and made me pay for her first
lols
den we sat down and talk
den zhijin keep on making me
haha
den vivian when going
avoid me
lols
den i scold him
haha
den later zhijn ask someone to come
in the end
we went home
lols
den come home
bored
my throat damn pain leh!
i wanna die already
lols
i post till here le
i wanna go and play game liao
lols
XOXO
tricia

i can't believe that you cant even give me a chance
i don't know what to say
you look like you like zhijin
and i am really worried that you will be with her
what can i do?
slit myself?

2/10/09

2009-10-02T17:56:00.000+08:00

heyy i am back
yesterday had to study
hais
today,
met zhijin in the morning
den later go walk around school
den flag-raising and den
had chinese exam
okay okay la
quite difficult
after that went to lot with zhijin
acutally got someone else de
but never mind
later went to food junction
den later walk here and there
cause we sian....
lols
den later went to sweettalk and went home
i am bored so i posting loh
haha
post till here le
nothing much to say today
wesley is going off today
hais
sad loh
bye wesley....
XOXO
tricia

~~today~~
the day is boring
everything
i cant believe it....
i still have to do housework loh
i hate it
i hate studying!
i hate everything in my life!
i cant believe i dont have a boyfriend
i love him and what did he give me?
i not so sure
now....
i know i still love him
i dont know if this is the right choice
but i know i will never give up on him....
i just want him...
is that very hard to achieve?
why dont i have the guts?
why not?
he is very different from the guys i love last time
the 2 guys were different from him
i dared to talk to the 2 guys
but him
i dunno why but i dont dare
i really want him...
hais
am i so despo?
no i dont think so
i think i am truely in love with him and that is why bah....
give me a chance....
open up to me
just give me a chance....please....

30/9/09

2009-09-30T20:07:00.000+08:00

hey...
new blog...
i mean
new skin and no posts
haha
cause my blog was hackeD!
lols
okay
today...
went to school
went out of house damn early
den reach school
go class
den zhijin came to talk
den later jiahui and melissa pei wo qu zhao zhijin
den later i found out that the message to meet at foyer was not i send de!
is zhixuan and jesse
they send to zhijin saying to meet her there
but i didnt know a single thing
sorry who ever was affected!
den later had geography
sian diao...my test only 10 marks!
hais
den later literature...
went through the textbook thingy
den still watch video
haha
den history
did checklist
went through sbq
did 1 question
den i go recess loh
found zhijin and told her who sent the message
den after recess
english
hais
spelling and synonym test
i sure fail loh...
den went through answers
den science did force and pressure
den english again
went through answers for first half
den the other half
ms lim teach us geography (:
den after that early dismissal
i went to find zhijin
waited outside
den that jiong yi came out and ask me question
den we went lunch
saw felicia
den hang out with her
later zhijin ate
i ate my headache medicine
den someone came and went...we didnt talk...
den felicia went
me and zhijin went up her class
den she hand in her work
went to library
jason and his friend there
joke seh
damn funny...
zhijin was like singing "i love elmo....!"
holding my elmo and singing
den the people beside us studying keep on looking
haha
den later we went out
jason looked after our stuff
went back...
and after a while
jason and his friend went away
left me and zhijin
went in and out of the library 2 times
the second time....
we sit outside the library do work
but b4 we could do anything
that someone came
and we had to go home liao
zhijin went to talk with someone
i went to pack bag den went home loh
came home
bathe joey (:
and den on computer till now
just finished my blog due to dinner and homework
so i will post until here le....
XOXO
tricia